Do You Have Strong Feelings Of Anger Or Revenge?

[SGT Bilko]

Revenge of the Vets

I use to walk around just wishing I would hear the whistle of a mortar as it droped through the air and see it SLAM into a crowd of those 17 year old pricks at the community college. I hated them so much for not signing up and I can't even explain why. I found them so arrogant and carefree that I truly hated them. Its taken me a long time not to be so hard on them, they are young and havn't had the same life experiences that I've had. Lucky them.

As to revenge, the nightmares of me savagely killing every single thing that moves in Iraq with a Knife is something that I can't seem to come to terms with. I dream about killing all the time. I even have developed a semi racisim against middle eastern people! I'm from California .... I can't be racist! I wasn't before, but god I am now and its so shameful. So i will work on these things one day at a time. Maybe there will come a day when I don't think about that f in place and I can just go about my day happily like those little pricks do at college.

 

[Marine0311]

I get the same way SGT Bilko, and the racist thing.... I have to go into a gas station or just see someone ar Walmart at 0300am with a rag on, I wanna go choke the MF's out on the spot. Nightmares for me are both combat and my EMS work. I hear whistles or bangs, Sirens, see wrecks on the highway.. Everything triggers me off..

 

[Keenbean]

I get angry too...

I get really angry sometimes about stuff that happened to me and stuff that I saw happen to other people caught up in the mental health system. I used to think about what I would do to certain people if I ever laid eyes on them again. Sometimes I still am really negative like that, and sometimes I think that it's not nice or productive to feel like that. I can't change the past, so sometimes I think of other ways that maybe I can help other people in the same situation as I was, and am trying to pursue a career that will allow me to do that. I do worry though that if I do that, I might never escape my past. I guess we all deal with anger in different ways, and I'm sure we all deal with it differently on different days of the week as well. Incidentally, I find that kickboxing helps :smile: