Relationship Do You Write A Journal?

[catlover26]

I am dating a Vietnam vet that is 16 yrs older than me. Yes, the age difference can have it's challenges but overall he is worth it. He has depression along with his ptsd so his moods go up and down. Since I had a few hours that were better than usual this afternoon I decided I needed to write it down to remind myself.

My mind tends to think too much about the negative things or things he says that can be easily misunderstood. Also the nights I have been over there and he seems so distant get stuck in my brain. Several months ago I decided the easiest thing for me to do was to send e-mails to myself and save them in a file.

It made me feel better to just read one from just a few weeks ago that I entitled 'Will things ever be the same between ________ and I ? He was at such a low spot then. He does seem like he has been getting gradually better since then.

I need to remember to write down the little things that happen between us that are positive signs he is better at times.

 

[Sighs]

I recently started a gratitude journal and I have found it helpful. :)

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I write in a spiral notebook and throw it away when I am done and have been doing this for over thirty years. I also have a Trauma diary here for much support. I encourage you to keep a journal because it is an invaluable tool to use.

 

[catlover26]

I recently started a gratitude journal and I have found it helpful. :)

I need to do a gratitude journal because I tend to think too much about the negatives in my life.

 

[catlover26]

I write in a spiral notebook and throw it away when I am done and have been doing this for over thirty yea...

I hesitated doing one after my divorce because I didn't want to look back and re read all the sh*t I had been through. I should have done it and thrown it away. Maybe I will. I know it sounds crazy I guess but I worry if I write some of these things down I am going to die suddenly and one of my kids will find it and read it. I may have to write a few pages and throw them away.

 

[Deleted member 12723]

That is a very good idea. I am considering that option for myself as well.

 

[Deleted member 27524]

I always wanted to write a journal about my journey with D that way I could get my feelings out but also when the hard days came I could look back and see why I hold on. I was always so paranoid someone would find it though.