I know its a wierd topic, I just wanted to see if there is anyone else feeling this way. Most of the time I literlaly feel like I cant do anything, or that Im just not able to be happy (thats an understatment). But than I acuse myself for just making it all up, just this feeling that if I choose to be happy and productive I could really he this way, but on the other hand it really never works. I get super motivated sometimes but than really cant get things done, or be consistent about my choises. I feel like there are two people inaide of me, one is functioning in the real world and when he tries to talk about all the sh*t going in his head it all feels like nonsense. On the other hand there is my inner experience which is deeply deeply depressed. So I get the feeling that maybe im just making it all up cause when people ask me I cant say anything besides "all is good" than feeling for a brief moment Im ok than going back to suffering. Anyone else feel the same? It drives me mad sometimes. Thanks for reading