"don't argue with me!!"

[oasis2003]

Doctors !!!!!!??????

 

[Stickler]

I am on buspar. You don't take it as needed, you take it all the time, it builds to dose. It's not addictive, though.

 

[joeylittle]

@ladee - I agree with all who have said, it wasn't a stupid post. Not at all. I just wanted to recommend that you not get derailed about Klonopin in general, if you really had a more specific issue to talk about in terms of your issues with the drug (if that makes sense).

And I'd echo the suggestions to talk with her. What @Justmehere is describing is very similar to a process outlined in the Interpersonal Effectiveness area of DBT - the dbt self help site will probably have some good worksheets on it.

Since you know that authority figures shutting you down is something that is upsetting to you, the opportunity to practice addressing it would be a good thing to take advantage of.

 

[ladee]

Thanks everyone, for helping me to see that it is ok if I have trouble saying I am hurt, to build my 'word wall', then go back and see that y'all really did understand. Appreciate the support and suggestions.
@Stickler, does it have short term affect? she told me to take 'as needed'...I'm so confused !!! And that is the reason I wanted it, non addicting !! thanks for telling me it builds to dose.
Dr's make me tired !!!
@Justmehere, I am going to speak to her about it. I have another appt in a month for my yearly physical. I will know what I want to say by then..(I hope:unsure:) Just glad I knew not to say anything then.. I do know that much !! My first reaction what to shut her down. That never works, only leads to other things that have nothing to do with what is really going on. so thanks for the encouraging me to go the 'gentle route'... heard and noted !!
@joeylittle, I will check into the dbt self help site... thanks for the suggestion.
I appreciate that you all had such encouraging and validating input, I so appreciate I am a place that others understand... thanks again.:hug:

 

[Stickler]

https://www.drugs.com/cdi/buspar.html

If you scroll down it notes that it only prevents anxiety symptoms.
It is not effective if only taken when symptoms are present.
I hope she prescribed a full month's worth.

Is your doctor a general practitioner? She may be unfamiliar with this med.

If she does not, I suggest you find a good med dosing reference in the library and print it.
That is if you don't have a printer at home.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @Stickler, she professes to be up on all meds for all things... so I am not going to pursue any of this with her. And yes, she gave me 60, so I am going to start with one a day (10mg) then see, and if needed. add the other one. I probably need to find a Pdoc to prescribe for me. She is a GP and has served her purpose as far as my pain meds and anti's... but the other stuff. out of her league.... Especially if she feels the way she does about Klonopin.. To me that is Book knowledge, not Experience knowledge... so she can only go with what she knows... Thank you for letting me know it was going to need to build up... I would be flopping around here running my hands thru my hair and thinking the med wasn't working...all I can do is shake my head at the professionals that play with our lives and use their ego as the measuring stick.... Thank goodness I have a place to come to that will help me.So, started yesterday taking once a day... Thanks again !! And thanks for the link!

 

[Deleted member 33052]

Wow, ladee, that's awful! I had a similar situation with my GP, except that she wouldn't hear me. She has her beliefs and biases, and it's really difficult for her to accept that she could be wrong. She was also arrogant enough that she would form an opinion before I even finished telling her what's wrong. :(

I ended up in ICU because she forgot to read my ECG results and told me they were fine. That was the last straw for me and I told her I needed her to start listening to me and take me seriously. I said a bunch of other stuff, too, but it's not worth repeating here. ;)

Anyway, I think that your doctor has forgotten that the two of you are supposed to be a team, and that you know your body better than she ever can.

 

[ladee]

Thanks @Mal Content !! She has been rushing the past few times I have been in there. So I really believe this last situation has made me aware that either I need to speak to her about this, or find a Pdoc. I have another appt next month for my yearly physical.. if it is still bothering me then, I will speak to her about it. I am not impressed,nor intimidated by 'authority'... tho I remain ok with instinctively knowing that then was not the time to address it with her.
I don't believe things have to be for 'forever' or that things have to be written in stone. If she no longer serves the purpose for me, I can simply walk away.
Authority only means they have the power to shut me up, temporally... Apparently this is coming to the surface for me Again... the not being heard thing... lord, how many layers is there to this damned onion....
I will let my craziness run it's course, do my self care and learn what i need to learn here, again !!
But this is how my healing road has been. Something appearing to not be relevant happens, and something else is really going on... The Universe has it's own way to bring me to healing...
I am proud of myself tho, for letting it lie for the time being. I can become so aggressive in situations like that and I didn't... so I choose to see some growth here also...
Like all of us, it takes time to sort out. I have time to do some great work on this.. so time will tell. thanks for your support Cap'n Mal !! Love and hugs.

 

[Deleted member 33052]

394. Layers, that is. ;)

 

[ladee]

Ok @Mal Content !! I am laughing now. All better. Inner Critic has left the building !!!:hilarious::hilarious::hilarious::hilarious::hilarious::hilarious::hug::hug::hug:

 

[Just Sayin']

That is my real issue here. I got another med, will see how it works... won't go down that road with her. My issue, my job to find my solution

You're my role model today.

If I could remember "my issue, my job to find my solution" rather than acting out even half the time, I'd be twice a better person.

 

[ladee]

Thank you @Just Sayin', the faster we own it, the faster we get to deal with it and move on. Sometimes that is very hard.. so be very proud of the times you do own it!! Glad you are here !! Gentle hugs to you if you accept.