dharmaBum
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8/13/24: Early morning nightmare (scattered and diminishing intensity for memory)
Dream Notes: Escaped as an adult (current age 51) from abduction (in dream) by a childhood abductor/abuser TS (in reality, abducted by him at age 10, in the dream he his roughly a powerful adult as he was when I was a child) [Dream abduction details mirror unrelated news story recounted by my recently visiting sister who was also abused & abducted by this same person: TS]
In the dream the next day he is walking into my house getting ready to attend with us all the funeral of several people (dreamworld friends and young relatives) he killed the night before. He acts normal. Right before he comes to the door I notice the door is unlocked. It's a screen door and I reach to lock it/ask my teen who is closer to lock it, but then realize asking to lock the heavier wooden door is better. I reveal I had survived his abduction the night before and he is an unfound murderer. He walks in at this moment. [In reality, 35+ years ago TS escaped the correctional facility where he was held after manhunted for the abduction of my sister 40 years ago (she age 8, me age 10- we were walking home from school and she never made it.) Town-wide police search found him hours later at the riverside with her, holding her in the water, possibly trying to drown her, purportedly "teaching her to swim." After escaping from the correctional facility, he beat and bound his brother, raped his deaf wife in front of him, and then stole his identity- wallet, car, etc.]
Dream TS is in the living room with my family, teen/preteen/husband/self and teen is talking about "the twins" and I say TS murdered them. I have level 20/10 nightmare fear about how I am going to get out of the house past this guy and see it seems he will come to the funeral. Other family members are not acting scared. Up to the screen door walks IC, father of a real-life child LC who died about 5 years ago. [IC and I had been friends and husband & I were the foster-parents of his child LC after their mother died suddenly 8 years ago due to possible drug overdose. After IC regained custody he moved with the child LC, to another state and the child died within a year due to mysterious circumstances never fully explained to us.]
Dream IC (a young-adult, healthy version of himself) is acting sad and like he is going to be at the funeral and I am overdone with fear from being around these two guys. IC killed LC I say [not wholly true to reality], feeling that vocal constriction that happens when trying to call out in nightmares.
I see both of their faces more than anything and feel so much fear that I awake with a start. I don't fully awake, but enough to know it is a dream. I have a moment where I think I might go back to sleep because I am tired, but refuse to return to that mental space and stay awake instead. It is a regular morning hour to wake up. I tell my husband I've had a terrible nightmare, but he doesn't ask about it.
Dream Notes: Escaped as an adult (current age 51) from abduction (in dream) by a childhood abductor/abuser TS (in reality, abducted by him at age 10, in the dream he his roughly a powerful adult as he was when I was a child) [Dream abduction details mirror unrelated news story recounted by my recently visiting sister who was also abused & abducted by this same person: TS]
In the dream the next day he is walking into my house getting ready to attend with us all the funeral of several people (dreamworld friends and young relatives) he killed the night before. He acts normal. Right before he comes to the door I notice the door is unlocked. It's a screen door and I reach to lock it/ask my teen who is closer to lock it, but then realize asking to lock the heavier wooden door is better. I reveal I had survived his abduction the night before and he is an unfound murderer. He walks in at this moment. [In reality, 35+ years ago TS escaped the correctional facility where he was held after manhunted for the abduction of my sister 40 years ago (she age 8, me age 10- we were walking home from school and she never made it.) Town-wide police search found him hours later at the riverside with her, holding her in the water, possibly trying to drown her, purportedly "teaching her to swim." After escaping from the correctional facility, he beat and bound his brother, raped his deaf wife in front of him, and then stole his identity- wallet, car, etc.]
Dream TS is in the living room with my family, teen/preteen/husband/self and teen is talking about "the twins" and I say TS murdered them. I have level 20/10 nightmare fear about how I am going to get out of the house past this guy and see it seems he will come to the funeral. Other family members are not acting scared. Up to the screen door walks IC, father of a real-life child LC who died about 5 years ago. [IC and I had been friends and husband & I were the foster-parents of his child LC after their mother died suddenly 8 years ago due to possible drug overdose. After IC regained custody he moved with the child LC, to another state and the child died within a year due to mysterious circumstances never fully explained to us.]
Dream IC (a young-adult, healthy version of himself) is acting sad and like he is going to be at the funeral and I am overdone with fear from being around these two guys. IC killed LC I say [not wholly true to reality], feeling that vocal constriction that happens when trying to call out in nightmares.
I see both of their faces more than anything and feel so much fear that I awake with a start. I don't fully awake, but enough to know it is a dream. I have a moment where I think I might go back to sleep because I am tired, but refuse to return to that mental space and stay awake instead. It is a regular morning hour to wake up. I tell my husband I've had a terrible nightmare, but he doesn't ask about it.
