Eerie Confirmation

[rosey]

@rosey no Im not ok but its ok Im not. Thanks for asking. Im so glad Im on this foru...

Great timing not.
Take good care of yourself and your daughter is so blessed to have you. You are an inspiration to be able to help another like that.

 

[sun seeker]

Now I gotta run to a meeting about incest.

That is some incredible timing! Maybe the meeting can help you integrate this new piece of information. I wish you peace.

 

[Freedomfighter]

The truth of my past is coming to me in snippets here and there, adding up to a fairly horrific whol...

I don't know why furniture placement sticks out in my mind , but it connects me to broken pieces of memories as a kid with a lot of questions that I will never get the answer to.8

 

[Poofycat]

I don't know why furniture placement sticks out in my mind

It think it might be because memory of furniture placement is maybe the only kind of memory that can be tied to place and time through concrete evidence such as photographs. It forces you to confront whatever it was you may not have been allowing yourself to believe happened. Which can be very painful.

 

[ladee]

I was thinking today how frustrated I get that there is no one to validate things I remember. I always have to reassure myself these things come out of nowhere, unbidden.
I still get snippets of things. Such random crap I would not have made up.
I hate PTSD and those respnsible for me having it!

 

[Deleted member 12723]

I have way too many blank periods in my life and even a partial memory with a blank in the middle and then I woke up and was in bed. After that I do not remember very much.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Such random crap I would not have made up.

yes, this, exactly what I kept trying to tell myself when I started having flashbacks. You are totally right, Ladee :hug:

 

[Bloomy]

@rosey Im the one who is blessed to have her :)

 

[ladee]

Before I understood what was going on I would have a flash of memory and just felt crazy. Who are you going to share that with? This can be one horribly lonely disease. No wonder we hang on to each other.

 

[sun seeker]

This can be one horribly lonely disease.

You can say that again. Yesterday (was it only yesterday?) I was in yet another crisis state, and desperately looking for help among my friends and neighbours, who did the best they could but were, to put it bluntly, clueless, even when told what kind of response I was looking for.

Support from my friends online tided me over. You guys get it. And I'm sorry that you do... but since you do, I'm glad you're here.

 

[sun seeker]

How did your group go @Bloomy?

 

[Bloomy]

Thanks for asking @sun seeker . It was terrible. I just cant understand that such ignorant people get to talk about such a hard topic like its nothing at all. Yeah probably it is to them. But maybe they should have consider that people with my experience also would join such an event? They were reading loud from a book and had chosen the worst chapter. I had to go out to get fresh air.
After they were discussin incest and what to do and how to do. And they want like oh but we must remember the poor abuser to that he might need help. I was like what the hell?? We that survived dont get any help so why should you focus on the person who do the crime when you cant even focus on the once that where victim of it?And feeling sorry for the guy? Did you forget the little girl that was so scared and all alone in the dark with this person?

I left before it was over. Wasnt ment for some one like me. It was ment for them that thought they could "help".