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Today, I realized that I tend to avoid working on on trauma by feeling bothered by other trauma. My T already knew this was going on. We are still trying to bring everything down in SUDS by using Flash EMDR before working out the detailed spots that really bother me. So, today we put both big T’s together into an opaque box. Did flash on that. Not sure if this was a great idea because now I feel like absolute shit. When I close my eyes, I hear my child part screaming that she is trapped in hell in that box. I know this all sounds pretty bizarre. But the traumas meshed together is like putting trauma feelings on steroids.
I want to reach out to my T for an extra session this week, but I’m only supposed to do that when I really need it. I’m not sure if wanting to feel better counts. It feels like I have the flu. My body aches, but I think this is trauma sensations. I’m really not sure. Any ideas here? Also, do any of you do Flash EMDR? Traditional emdr was always too overwhelming. I’d leave there pretty badly disassociated. The flash is usually less intense, until we put both events into that container together.
I want to reach out to my T for an extra session this week, but I’m only supposed to do that when I really need it. I’m not sure if wanting to feel better counts. It feels like I have the flu. My body aches, but I think this is trauma sensations. I’m really not sure. Any ideas here? Also, do any of you do Flash EMDR? Traditional emdr was always too overwhelming. I’d leave there pretty badly disassociated. The flash is usually less intense, until we put both events into that container together.