I began to know my different parts not too long ago. I noticed for me when i relate and accept the child then the protector actually steps back more as i gain control of awareness instead being on auto pilot. Doodling, writing, taking time to try to remember my day helps, journals help, and working with my T.
I have a purple whale that squirts water in the bath and floats. Doors locked, shower curtain closed, very dim light, i feel safe when there is silence and just the sounds i am aware of. Splish splash swims the whale...squirt. This is when the protector rests and that is good because when he is tired everything gets amplified and he protects me by getting very aggressive which is often not appropriate for the context.
