FauxLiz
Sponsor
I don't even know how to describe what I have been feeling the past several days other than an almost mental and physical paralysis due to the COVID-19 virus. I am not afraid of the virus, the food shortages, societal panic etc it is because of the responsibilities that come with my job. I am responsible for putting together the operational and emergency response plan for my organization but it also goes further than that because we are a public service agency that provides necessary services to the public of all ages. We don't have the option of closing to the public, we can take steps to minimize contact with members of the public but elimination entirely is impossible. I also have a very limited budget and we don't have the resources or the infrastructure in place to allow for remote working even in essential positions and I am terrified that I am going to screw this up and I am somehow going to be responsible for someone or their loved one getting sick and dying because I didn't do the right thing, couldn't figure out the right things to do and I am floundering and I feel like I have the lives of my own family, my employees, their families and the entire community on my shoulders and no one to help or tell me that it is going to be okay.
I am sorry, I know that there are a lot of people here around the world that have things much worse right now but all I want to do is curl up in a ball and I can't because I know that if I do the worst will happen and it will be at least partially my fault.
I am sorry, I know that there are a lot of people here around the world that have things much worse right now but all I want to do is curl up in a ball and I can't because I know that if I do the worst will happen and it will be at least partially my fault.