Fear

[Chitoshi]

@Snowflake Sometimes I get on here to not feel so abnormal, too. :) I have a closet as a safe space because it's where I can regulate when things feel out of control. I replied because I think it's really helpful to know that people probably have the same fears.

Like we both have a fear of the dark, failure, and probably sharing our trauma. I have a lot of fears I didn't mention here because I think I would end up with a paragraph, so I just broke down the major ones.

 

[Snowflake]

@Snowflake Sometimes I get on here to not feel so abnormal, too. :) I have a closet...

A closet was my safe place as a child.

 

[Freedomfighter]

Well, when talking about fear there are probably many. I fear that I was even more abused during a time when I needed someone to step in to stop a crime from happening. From what I am learning now adversaries that I was not even aware of were lying in wait to strike an innocent victim.

I fear that even though at that time I did not know that, it now seems to be shown to me stronger and stronger of what all of these people really were preparing for. It seems that now I know the real people that I reported this crime too and how they attempted to discredit and hurt me even more.

What for? Who knows, all I know is that as a stalking victim my fears are very real since daily death threats against me are a reality that I have to live with.

I don't know if this can be called fear: but I am wondering if those people will ever have to pay for what they did to me. At the time of victimization I was totally helpless, more dead than alive inside and now I am learning that everyone that attempted to be in contact with me had a sleazy, self serving, and inappropriate reason to do so.

My fear turns into instant hurt, now that I know what all of those people who acted like they would help me really are capable of.

 

[EveHarrington]

I'm afraid of everyone.

 

[Deleted member 29920]

Choking. That's my biggest one.

And the unexpected. I don't do great with this.

Try this -


False
Emotion
Appearing
Real

Sometimes that helps me.

 

[Deleted member 34328]

Fear of confronting the demons of past
Fear of being real with people
Fear of rejection
Fear of not being the mother or wife that I want to be
Fear of having or experiencing PTSD for the rest of my life

 

[oasis2003]

When I am bad everything literally wrapping myself in a duvet chanting the mantra 'safe from harm' over and over.

When I am good everything medical petrified of anything to do with hospital / docs . Also other people and sharing my ptsd exposing my vulnerability to any one .

 

[sun seeker]

I'm afraid of saying what I am afraid of. :(

 

[PlainJane]

Weakness

 

[TXbandit]

Abandonment. Losing loved ones. Losing this battle.

 

[I_will_recover]

Anthony

 

[intothelight]

Falling short of expectations
Letting people down
Not being good enough
Failure