Kaylove498
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I recently dove back into drinking and the last drinks I had was the night before last.
I was getting extremely better I was going out again laughing for the most part enjoying coming back to reality well when I drank a few nights ago,mind you I slipped into a binge of drinking.when I started drinking this odd numbness came over me to the point I actually put the drink down for the night because I felt so weird.
Well the next day came I woke up and that numbess just wouldn't leave so I went home and slept for the day when I woke up I felt great a tad blah but over all good and present.
The next night I decided to drink again and this time I got to the point where I could barely walk now I've dealt with dpdr for months and I can usually at this point ignore the numb feelings but this feels different.
Well once again I stopped drinking for a day or two and decided to drink alot for a night and by alot I mean a whole bottle of pall Mason big bottle.
I went to sleep and once again woke up numb and tense it's been two days now and I can't shake this feeling it's to the point that I don't feel like I exist again and everything feels like a dream I can't wake up from.
Ive slept alot since the other night but I'm almost afraid to go to sleep in fear that I'll die I just feel so numb.
The numb feelings is very odd because I'm not actually physically numb being that I've pinched myself a thousand time and can feel it but just sitting here I feel numb and like I'm just a blob of nothing.
I'm not sad happy or technically scared I'm just very blank emotionally and physically.
What can I do?
Did the drinking spiral me back into my dpdr and make it worse?
I was getting extremely better I was going out again laughing for the most part enjoying coming back to reality well when I drank a few nights ago,mind you I slipped into a binge of drinking.when I started drinking this odd numbness came over me to the point I actually put the drink down for the night because I felt so weird.
Well the next day came I woke up and that numbess just wouldn't leave so I went home and slept for the day when I woke up I felt great a tad blah but over all good and present.
The next night I decided to drink again and this time I got to the point where I could barely walk now I've dealt with dpdr for months and I can usually at this point ignore the numb feelings but this feels different.
Well once again I stopped drinking for a day or two and decided to drink alot for a night and by alot I mean a whole bottle of pall Mason big bottle.
I went to sleep and once again woke up numb and tense it's been two days now and I can't shake this feeling it's to the point that I don't feel like I exist again and everything feels like a dream I can't wake up from.
Ive slept alot since the other night but I'm almost afraid to go to sleep in fear that I'll die I just feel so numb.
The numb feelings is very odd because I'm not actually physically numb being that I've pinched myself a thousand time and can feel it but just sitting here I feel numb and like I'm just a blob of nothing.
I'm not sad happy or technically scared I'm just very blank emotionally and physically.
What can I do?
Did the drinking spiral me back into my dpdr and make it worse?