Fed Up, Dont Think I Can Do It Again This Year..... Feeling Rough

[cat]

Not sure where I should have posted this, so I apologise if its in the wrong place.

Christmas & in particular New Years eve bring with them some very disturbing memories & although i consider myself in recovery this year it seems to have hit me bad. It's the first year without my T's support & I'm feeling very lost. Add to that extra stress from a family member this week & I think I either took a double dose of meds yesterday & feeling rough from that or have flu brewing, either way i'm feeling very down. I should be going to my son's house tomorrow to stay for christmas, be ok if it was just the 4 of us but other family are coming who don't know about my oddities.

I guess i have a bad attack of feeling sorry for myself but after 6yrs i worry that family & friends no longer want to listen to my bad times.

Any suggestions out there? I'm wearing myself out trying to sort my thoughts out!

 

[simple riddle]

Cat,

I'm sorry I don't have many suggestions, but I wanted to let you know you are not alone in your feelings. The holiday's are a hard time for me as well. What I plan to do throughout the week is to focus on my son & watch him as his face lights up on Christmas morning.

I hope that you feel better physically as well, being sick just adds to the crappy feelings! I also understand about family not knowing "oddities". I would encourage you to keep posting here, I know that I will be around this weekend especially. I am new here, but have already found so much support.

Take comfort in knowing you are not alone, and that you CAN do it again this year!!!

 

[Helliepig]

Yes it's a hard time when you're trying to recover.

I guess I am trying to think that, because I know I am in a difficult place this year, not to expect anything from christmas and not to be too hard on myself if I don't face it squarely on.. just get through it however I can and enjoy any small bits that I do.

There are many many of us in the same boat and no doubt we will be drawing on this forum for support over the next few days... It will soon pass x

 

[KP the nut]

(((Cat))), I've sent you a pm.

 

[Jezzryn]

I am sorry to see, that you have so hard a time at Christmas. I did too, for a long time, and this year, well... This year my 'comfort' plan sank, but, this isn't about me.

I actually have an idea, that might help make you feel better. Think of something you enjoy doing and that will be available to you. And add that to your schedule as a reward, like: 4 hours horrid family time ( I find it helps me coping setting a time limit to activities, that I don't enjoy and find stressful) and afterwards 2 hours feel-good-time. Or more. As long as it takes. And if something happens, that you can't take: go home or think: I can get through this and later I will have (insert good activity you have planned)

I hope it helps you a little.

<edited by Cherryblossom - capital letters and paragraph breaks>

 

[endless]

Hi Cat,
I don't really know what to reply, but didn't want to just read,and run.
I understand,and feel for you as Christmas for me too, is a very sad time.
Hope you get through it ok,and start to feel better soon
x

 

[KP the nut]

(((Cat))), I hope it was better than you expected. Be proud of yourself my friend, be very proud. :D

 

[Helliepig]

cat, hope it was ok and you survived

 

[cat]

Thank you so much for your replies, your support & suggestions has be a great help.

Christmas, as it usually does, has passed without disaster. Other than me having food poisoning I had a lovely time with my sons & families, playing with grandchildren or going for walks when things got tough.

Yet another lesson re-learnt - dont let how i might feel tomorrow influence how i feel today, take each day as it comes!

 

[Meadowsweet]

Well done Cat :)

 

[KP the nut]

(((Cat))), I'm so proud of you, I thought of you often.