Feeling Alone In The World

[AKP7]

For six days my aniexty level is through the roof, im so depressed. Trying to find people i can trust is so hard, trying to find people that understand what im going through is so hard. So i came to this forum, i don't have a clue what to do or what's happening and that really freaks me out. Sometimes i feel like im not even a part of this world. Im so out of place. My heart races all day every day, sometimes i can't breathe, sometimes i just feel like i want to pass out. Im in therapy but that doesn't help the extreme palpitations or the nightmares. Sometimes i have hallucinations, i hear things and see things, sometime im attacked. Im always looking over my shoulder thinking im being followed or someone wants to hurt me. This is how i live my life every day for many years

 

[Nilrath]

I'm sorry that this is happening to you.

Thankfully, I'm sure that most of us here have dealt with similar feelings either currently, or in the past. So we will be able to relate to you! I'm a bit new here as well, and I can definitely tell you that I understand what you mean with the constant feelings of being on guard, and trying to deal with them. It's hard. Always be mindful of what you're doing, where you are, and where you can be safe.

When my anxiety is at about an 8 or 9 out of 10, i begin to have delusions that everyone around me are monsters, and i avoid them at all costs. I can usually understand that what i'm feeling is not normal, but it doesn't stop my body from feeling it. Your body is incredibly reactive, and unfortunately, our bodies are stuck mid-reaction, and that reaction is fear. But we have tools designed to help us beat the fear, and we can reprogram ourselves to interpret fear differently.

Best wishes!

 

[Ka-9]

very sorry to hear your current struggles, you have my full empathy.

I also feel a bit better when I can at least rub shouders with other PTSD, or extreme depressive/etc sufferers. I isolated myself too long me thinks.

 

[moshpitmunkey]

you're not alone. I struggle with terrible anxiety and depression on a regular basis all the time and it is definitely hard. I'm so sorry you're struggling right now with everything you're going through. its never easy but I'm hoping that you keep reaching out, especially on these forums, and keep working with your therapist to find coping mechanisms that will help you. And be nice to yourself dont be so hard on yourself. Breathe. Its gonna be ok. You are heard and valued. You can make it through this.

 

[AKP7]

you're not alone. I struggle with terrible anxiety and depression on a regular basis all the time...

Thank you so much for those words of strength.

 

[AKP7]

very sorry to hear your current struggles, you have my full empathy.

I also feel a bit better when I can...

Thank you

 

[AKP7]

I'm sorry that this is happening to you.

Thankfully, I'm sure that most of us here have dealt with sim...

How do we reprogram ourselves against the fear i have been trying for years but i keep failing

 

[Glo809]

Greetings

Tonight I told the mrs that at this point in time I'm.... emotionally naked, and if she were to keep her less than positive thoughts to a minimum.....

Only to hear this.........

You are not the only one with a secret vault of hidden stuff.

So as I try to get better, I now drag the mrs, against her will into the same well of agony. ?

 

[Freedomfighter]

For six days my aniexty level is through the roof, im so depressed. Trying to find people i can trust is s...

Most PTSD sufferers can relate to the anxiety problems, but I think we all have to be very careful about imagined dangers and real dangers. That is where many people get mixed up anyways.

I am very aware of real dangers, and due to my ability to see people from the inside, to read their mind in an instant I also react right away to such real dangers. Many people from my past, the ones who are guilty for idly standing by while I was repeatedly assaulted and stalked, are attempting to reenter my life, to no avail of course.
The perpetrator did not go to jail, he was instead coddled by others who lied about me instead.

Anyone that lets this perpetrator go free and does not help to put the criminal in prison where he belongs should never ever attempt to enter my life. Instead of receiving help from the people who were in charge of the criminal case I now get mobbed by those so called criminal justice workers, disgusted by their actions.

What gave you PTSD? Many can not talk about that so it is understandable if people do not share the reasons why they got PTSD in the first place.

 

[AKP7]

Most PTSD sufferers can relate to the anxiety problems, but I think we all have to be very caref...

I was abused as a child raped when i was a teenager , and kidnapped and almost killed by a crazy ex.

 

[crashmoon]

I'm new as well!! Hoping, just like you, to find people to relate to and lean on for support.

When my anxiety goes sky high, I either dissociate or I panic. Lately it's been more common that I go into panic mode rather than dissociate though

 

[Nilrath]

How do we reprogram ourselves against the fear i have been trying for years but i keep failing

To be honest, it takes persistence and constant retraining, from what I've heard. We just need to not give up, when it seems like it's the only option!