The Albatross
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I actually was self sufficient for a time between marriages and the first 10 years. I work, but it's low paying and short shifts and it does get to me that I feel like my partner has to take on and do more ... cover for me basically because I just have not either mentally/physically (or both) been able to get back to my previous level of financial contribution to our home and life together. I'm trying, It's been a slow slog with many setbacks. But as I age, I feel that the "ring" of financial independence is getting farther and farther away. I guess I need a kick in the arse as well @richter scale because I feel often that "If only" I could consistently either do more or find a better paying position (when I no longer have skills) that it would help me to feel better about myself and our situation.
Also I feel the need to "pay my way"... and think it's tied in to a sense of some control issues, low self worth, and a track record that included being financially manipulated and controlled by others abusively. Financial stuff pings the heck out of me still.
Also I feel the need to "pay my way"... and think it's tied in to a sense of some control issues, low self worth, and a track record that included being financially manipulated and controlled by others abusively. Financial stuff pings the heck out of me still.
