Getting Accountability For My Abuse

[recoveringfromptsd]

One of the things that I am having to struggle with that never goes away is my abuse at EHS, I know I can not handle the stress of such a confrontation, but I feel that I can never have a sense of safety internally unless there is some accountability or an attempt at it.

Has anyone else here been thru getting justice or accountability for abuse done to them?

while I was there, I had 2 clients rape me, as well as a staff member. The entire time I was mentally abused, treated as if I was sub-human, and was held down a lot often for no reason other than to make me mad. One time it was for over 8 hours in the dirt and sub where I required medical treatment for my back afterwards. It was so bad that I often existed in a disassociated fantasy world where I was safe. That world felt real, so much so that some of the impossible elements of it I often wondered if they were real and happened.

 

[Gs172003]

Ehs?

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

Ehs?

Environments for Human Services, just under 2 years, all 3 forms of abuse.

Do a google search of "Tammy Agee Environments for Human Services" you will understand

EHS was a offshoot of Browndale from their boston office, they are still operating up north as "Communities for People"

That office was an off shoot of browndale in canada, see browndale.net (see good controls for children and disipline)

Google Search "Warrendale", it led to Browndale. You will read some bizarre stuff. Gives you a sense what I was dealing with but worse.

 

[joeylittle]

@recoveringfromptsd - the last time you posted this level of information you were concerned about security. Are you no longer concerned about your confidentiality? (which is fine, but I want to ask while you can still edit your post)

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I am not worried about that anymore. This stuff is out in the open with those who know me now. Before I had not shared anything even with family and my sister.

 

[EveHarrington]

Would you be ok if you tried to get accountability and your case was dismissed? If nobody admitted any wrongdoing? If they dragged you through the mud?

Do you have any proof? Did you mention the abuse to anyone at the time? I'm not asking because I think you're lying, rather without any proof or outcry at the time, it's likely that the case will be dismissed (and could possibly increase your symptoms).

I think it would be a good idea to write it all down, make a list of pros and cons of speaking out. Then make a decision on how to proceed.

I've had many safety issues over the years. I used to think my sense of safety was a function of external factors but I'm learning that most of it is a matter of reframing things in my mind.

I know it's not easy. :hug:

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

At the Federal Level DSS was a party and instead of protecting me and others they choose to allow it to happen because it solved their foster home placement crisis. And EHS was shut down but not until a client was murdered (Tammy Agee), so there is proof, so the best I could hope for is a Federal CAPTA investigation. But it will send a message to DSS and Arlington County, that it did not get swept under the run like it was at the time due to the politics of the day.

I would be fine with any result good or bad, its not revenge I want, its accountability.

 

[Freedomfighter]

Accountability, yes that would be nice, instead the people that abuse me continue to lie and cheat while accusing me of tbe same.

 

[Justmehere]

Try looking for a victim advocate or victim law non-profit in your area. They might be able to help. They may able be able to work with Bazelon Center for Mental Health law, which sometimes helps in cases like this.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

I have actually started doing that, taking my time. While I need this, I don't need it to drive me.

 

[recoveringfromptsd]

Good news, I spoke with my T about this today, were actually going to develop a plan for this, and build it into my treatment plan, so that I am doing this right and in a way that I can handle it.

 

[Justmehere]

That's great!!!