Getting Crushed. Like A Bug.

[MissMacD]

So I worked myself silly to apply for a job that I really wanted and everything was going great and they told me that I basically had the job and today I got a rejection email. I am so incredibly crushed that I didn't get the position. I am drowning in debt and tired of living on welfare and there isn't much choice for me here. I just want happiness in my life and I feel cheated by my crappy parents for cheating me out of life lessons that have made my life way harder than it needs to be.

I feel defeated. I feel absolutely crushed. I want to kick and scream and throw myself on the floor and thrash around like a three year old.

:cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry::cry:

 

[Samantha_38]

Been there! Try to take it as its opening you up for a different, even better, opportunity. You just don't know about it yet. I know that's difficult. I get ticked off about my crappy parents all of the time too, for the same reasons. It also feels like they're still messing me up years later after I finally got out of that situation and its annoying. I hate knowing that they are still affecting my life even when they aren't around. I try SO hard to not let it affect anything, so when it does I break down, "like a three year old."

 

[franciemarnie]

I know the feeling. Get that mad energy out - kick and scream as much as you want as long as you don't hurt you or anybody. You are entitled to feeling mad!

But honest to God, the greatest thing that ever happened to me professionally was getting fired once with little to no future prospects. It opened up a fantastic new path I hadn't thought possible.

 

[Bedbug]

Not all bugs get crushed! :-)

Seriously, though, I am sorry you have had to go through this. I hope things improve soon.

 

[MissMacD]

I know that things come to us when we need them, I feel like I am far beyond the point of needing something good to happen for me.

 

[Echo]

@MissMcD - I'm sorry this happened. But do you really want to work for a company that does this to people? They sound chaotic to me. I am so glad about all the jobs that I almost but didn't quite get. There was always something better. I only got them when I aimed really high and believed in myself. Don't let anyone crush you. There'll be a reason why this one wasn't the right one.

 

[MissMacD]

Thank you for your support and feedback. I am under so much stress right now with crippling debt and being off work much longer isn't an option. I can't handle something with high stress anymore so it limits what I can do. I guess maybe I need to take a step back and focus on the good things and move forward.

 

[Spiderallis]

It's rough not to get the job, but you were close- that's still something. It doesn't help with bills or anything, but that means you presented yourself well and did a great job convincing them that you'd be a great employee.

 

[The Albatross]

Sounds like you did really great on the interview. I have put off a better job for a few years now. I'm not good at the whole process, so I really commend you on being able to apply, interview and get good feedback. Maybe let them know if there is another opening you would like to keep your application active to be reconsidered???

 

[DharmaGirl]

This happened to me except my old job offered me the position back, I accepted. I called a few days later to ask when I could bring in a doctors note and get my schedule and they told me they gave the job to someone else. Then I walked to the pharmacy to pick up my meds, and they told me my insurance had been cut off the previous month, and I had to pay back all the money for the month's prescriptions. I was bereft.

I am so glad that I wasn't able to go back to work there. As with many of my pre-therapy relationships, the job was toxic. The bosses were toxic. I know this is a huge disappointment for you. It seems the end is in sight and then ripped away, but sometimes it works out that it was the best thing.

 

[MissMacD]

I think that more than anything I am hugely frustrated because I've been out of the job market for almost two years and the past few months I've prepared myself for going back to work. The job that crushed me was the first one I really wanted. I am learning to deal with disappointment and bad things as they happen instead of letting them bottle up and exploding and having a melt down.

Near the end of my old job a lot of crappy things were happening in my personal life and I needed to take quite a lot of medical leave. Then my job got pulled out from under me suddenly (my contract was outsourced to another country) so everything just fell apart.

Thank you for your support and kind words. It's exactly what I needed to hear today. I want to allow myself to feel mad and angry and cheated now. I don't want to let it fester and have it break down my health later on.

 

[MissMacD]

DharmaGirl, at the end of my last job things got pretty toxic too and I should look out for myself so I don't get into that situation again. Thank you for pointing that out.

Albatross, I did great in my interview but I feel like they gave me false hope in my success with the position. I would have preferred if they had been honest with me than to lead me on.

Spiderallis, it did take a lot of effort and courage to attempt to get back into the job market after so much time off. I am feeling antsy because I am ready to go back to work.

Bedbug, if I'd been truly squished I certainly wouldn't be here.