Going Back Into Therapy

[Deleted member 541]

Thanks to all that have wished me well. It's hard to admit when you need help, but we all come to that point at times. We just need to listen to our own minds, see the red flags that are waving, and not close our eyes.

Thanks again to all.....

 

[Grama-Herc]

KUDOS MY FRIEND

I am so proud of you for so many reason.

You had the strength to stand up and say "NO" when you were over loaded.

You reached out for help BEFORE you got into a dangerous place.

While it is difficult for you to see now, you really have come a long way in your
healing process. To recognize the trouble you are currently in and taking the proper steps to manage it shows remarkable growth. You should be very proud of yourself
for how far you have come and how strong you really are.

Take care of YOU for US my friend, we need your example to remind us that it is possible to manage and even maybe overcome.

Keep us in your thought because we are all behind you and we will keep you in our prayers because we are all with you

Much Love Jan

 

[Deleted member 541]

After the entire week that I have had, and the shit I had to go through today.....I have decided that therapy should have been LAST week, so that I could have had a jump start on things.

I am NOT doing well at all, especially after todays shit. I am seriously not coping well, if at all. I am a bundle of emotions that seem to want to change with every breath. One minute crying, the next raging, the next hyper/manic, and the next numb. I am totally confused over everything, but even moreso over my emotions that are just off the fricking chart.

I feel crazy and to be quite honest, after the week that I have had, the things I have had to deal with and endure.......I feel I am ENTITLED to be crazy.........

 

[LightTilDawn]

I'm sorry you had a bad day :hugs:
Of course you're entitled to feel crazy, I'm begining to think that feeling "normal" is for the weak

 

[pandora]

Yes...what you have handled this week WITH ptsd, not a lot of people could do and you just keep pushing forward. I am proud of you for taking care of yourself too!!!!!

 

[Deleted member 541]

Tomorrow (Tuesday) is my first session, so I will just see how it goes. The one thing I am worried about right now.....One of my biggest triggers has kicked in big time after what happened last week, and as usual I am not eating. Have lost as of today, 13 pounds.

The last time this trigger hit I was in my late 20's....I became anorexic, and lost 85 lbs in 4 months. ( I needed to lose weight but not that way) I all but stopped eating. I was under very careful watch by my Dr. But it took years for me to overcome.

I am hoping to get a grip on this fast... I do need to lose weight again, but only a few pounds, nothing major!!!!!!!

 

[Mercy]

I hope your therapy goes well tomorrow. You are very brave and wise to know when it is time to get more help.

Please do try to eat something good. I've been anorexic too and know how slippery the slide to too thin can be.

My thoughts will be with you
HUGS

 

[Cindy]

Eating or not ...

I do the same thing. When under extreme frustration, anxiety, triggers, feeling overwhelmed (basically PTSD symptoms) the first thing that goes out the window is eating.

A therapist once explained to me it was a negative coping skill. That by not eating I had control of something when all else felt out of control. This totally made sense to me. When I was marginal about eating having that knowledge sometimes encouraged me to have crackers and peanut butter, or cheese and fruit. But when fully vigilant and maxed out - two coffees a day is the staple diet.

I have been working with a nutritionist the past 3 months to get a handle on my 'lack' of eating and trying to put food back into my life in a manageable way without high anxiety about it. Some weeks have been good with two meals a day and others :( BUT I'm trying which is more than I have done for years.

Once you begin to get a handle on things again I am sure you will be able to start eating small things here and there.

Hang in there!

Cindy

 

[midi]

Aye, we try to cope by hurting ourselves. I was anorexic in grade 8. Currently, I eat way too much, but I can't stop. Maybe after a few months of working on issues...

Take care of yourself and let us know how it goes!

 

[morgan]

Wendy, I wish you well in therapy tomorrow.

Take good care, Morgan

 

[ice man]

Good for you She Cat,i am inspired by your courage.I hope it works out for you,good luck:clap:

 

[Deleted member 541]

Thanks ice man. Although I'm not sure I have courage, but rather I know that I needed to go back. There is always the time that a person just has to say, that they can't do it alone.