It’s a tad multilayered for me I guess. Most of the time just being in the same state has me on serious edge. On the other hand when I’m having a particularly bad day I will take a drive and usually end up at one or more of the places. I also visit other painful non trauma places, they are painful because they are where I had my dad. It’s not a good idea I do this stuff though because it’s in a self harm frame of mind. It’s double edged too because I’m mad at the places that haven’t changed at all for not changing and I’m mad at the places that have changed (even trauma places) for changing. Like the blue house has been torn down but you would think that would make me feel better but it doesn’t. I will add though there is one particular place that I am so sure another trauma I cant remember happened that I visit way too often trying to purposely trigger anything past the little bit of memory I do have and I haven’t been successful which just puts me in a worse mood.