Got serious this weekend

[Deleted member 40995]

Hi
I've struggled with SI and self harm for quite some time now but its been several years since my last really truelly serious attempt where I just thought, I really want it to be over right now and really tried. The thing is, I have a lot of good in my life right now for the first time in a long time, and a lot of things to look forward to but I've been so depressed lately, and I don't understand why I have been suicidal when I have the most good things going on then I have in a long time. I hope this makes sense. I've been so up and down, one minute I am hopeful and feeling so good, and then the next I am suicidal. Looking for advice, suggestions on how to manage this would be extremely helpful; looking for some clarity maybe Im just confused.

 

[Joan]

So sorry that you are struggling so right now. It sounds so familiar how you can be hopeful and then suicidal. One thing that has helped me is a scrapbook with notes from others about who they see me to be, or encouragement along with some milestones along my journey. It helps me to go back and look at these when there seems to be no hope. Helps me look back a year, 2, etc and how things are different. Great job reaching out and I hope that you find something that helps in this rough time.

 

[Muted]

@Rosie11 I understand this, because I was dealing with the same thing. I was also confused by it, I ended up adding another antidepressant and it went away.

I don’t know if that will work for you, but it has really helped me. I hope you can get through this and feel better.