Happy Feelings And Energy Hits A Brick Wall

[lorrainess]

Hi Lorraine - I'm sorry to hear you've been having a rough time. Is it a particularly bad time or just t...

Hey Agatha,

dont know how to accurately describe it, its been bad for many years, had issues with 3 neighbors, suddenly one of them in my mind, turns into a family member, and i've been taken over with crippling feelings, as soon as i hear certain noises im triggered, i had to go over and complain about their kids, my eating, sleeping, little self help routine, all out the window, i get triggered just living with my parents anyway, so much stuff going on, i just want to run away, but i ran away to cornwall last year, and some triggers went through the roof , but i cant stand living in this city either. Sorry, i'm just blurting all this out, sometimes i think all the people i speak to help me, dont understand with all their god will and qualifications. I have a homeless appointment today, i may be moved somewhere in the city, or may be back to trying to find somewhere by myself. I dont /cant work at the moment because of the intense symptoms. I dont know if i have found decent therapy/ist or organization yet to help me, i had an assessment , i was very uncomfortable with the woman, generlly i dont trust my local mental health services, and im scared of them, not sure they will even diagnose me with it, though i clearly have it, i have those kind of worries. Ill stop now. Im jumping all over the place. Sorry. Glad the edmr went well, sounds good.

cheers

Lorraine

 

[lorrainess]

Hey Agatha,

dont know how to accurately describe it, its been bad for many years, had issues with 3...

What i want is to be left alone, not worry about my parents welfare, guilt, ( they are both deaf, with earning needs) my mother gives me guilt trips, as i give them myself, i feel totally responsible to them. They have emotional intelligence of children and are insensitive to me daily, they are also the only friends i've got, its a circle. I've been fighting for years on my own to get well using only self help writing, because of awful experiences with counsellers ive found and that have been assigned to me. I just want to be treated helped by people who undrstand this and get on with healing

 

[Agatha]

Dear Lorraine. It's sounds like a very difficult situation for you. The one thing I would strongly say to you regarding mental health services is keep asking, asking and asking again. Until you get what you need for you. Not all counsellors, therapists are the same. Some you click with others you don't. Do not be afraid to keep asking for help. We all deserve to make the best potential of our life.

And don't be afraid of 'blurting things out'....If you can't share on here etc etc. It's important to not be on your own with this.
Hope you're homelessness appointment is productive .....Good luck

 

[lorrainess]

Dear Lorraine. It's sounds like a very difficult situation for you. The one thing I would strongly say t...

Hi Agatha,

Thanks for your understanding. The anxiety went off. I totally will stop therapy with any people or organizations i'm not comfortable with, Usually if its not going right, i suppress my immediate feelings then i end it a little time after seeing them, but i always end it. Im a bit worried about not liking the people from the local mental health authority when i get the appointment. As it seems they are the only people that can officially diagnose it. Anyway, i wont work with them even at the cost of that if i'm not comfortable. We'll see. I was offered to be placed in a hostel in 6 months time if i'm lucky, so i'm just looking privately now. Thanks for asking.

How was the EDMR?

Lorraine