Ladyghosthunter
Gold Member
Oh yes, I've been there. If I feel happiness (just like the other posts), I feel guilt. Worse yet, I cannot allow myself to feel happy because I've known misery for so long that it's been a trusted friend. The best thing I've done is relied on my faith to get me through minute to minute and not overwhelm myself. Oh yes, I forgot. I've developed a type of cynicism towards happiness too. "Yeah right" is/was my attitude because happiness is fleeting. It's a sad way to think of life but when you have PTSD, everything becomes complex and distorted.
