Hard Session- Time Line

[Terri Armstrong]

today i seen my therapist after 4weeks off. We discussed picking up the EMDR sessions we were doing before...

All I know is that only the truth will set you free. Be gentle with yourself... progress, not perfection - sometimes, just one minute at a time... I am glad that I faced my demons and it has been quite a few years back... I do not hurt as badly as I once did... My honesty lead me to understand that if God allowed this to happen to me, He must have a greater plan for me... I found out what God had planned - to help others and to pray for their recovery and peace. I will pray for you to have courage and comfort during this very difficult time... Terri A.

 

[ladee]

That is what we do here @Jen12 , one of the many reasons I love the forums. We do understand, and happy to hear you might be a little easier on yourself. I understand not wanting the names out. Have you told your T about the incident of someone outing the situation? If not, allow her to validate your concerns and that will help you feel more trusting as time goes by. sending hugs if you accept them... You are doing great !

 

[Sunny6]

Well I'm proud of you for having the courage to even attend these sessions. It sounds so hard what you're trying to work through with your T but you still try again. That's very admirable. And I agree with everyone else, be gentle with yourself. Some things take time and that's okay. Tackle these things at your own pace which you can keep up. Every small step is a valid one.

 

[Riot]

@Jen12, I picked up a book recently, by Peter A. Levine. It's called "In An Unspoken Voice" and I highly, highly recommend it. It put to ease a lot of my apprehension about sharing my experience--all in just a few pages. (Since you don't know me that well, I'll just put it out there: I had a super hard time with opening up to therapy and still struggle with some things, but it's important to recognize it for what it is and push through it. I am also somewhat new to therapy myself.)

 

[Jen12]

Thank you @claire east, its nice to have somewhere to go where people understand.... My mum found out about my abuse from a clueless medical doctor who thought it was 'ok' and thought she'd of known?! He stated in a medical letter under diagnosis's 'ptsd- due to physical & sexual abuse'.

I wasnt even aware my physichiatist had disclosed this information to him! As ive always bern told its confidential. Safe to say they all blamed each other & wormed there way out of it =(

 

[Jen12]

@Terri Armstrong thank you for your kind words of care and reassurance. Im so glad to hear you were brave and tackled the demons head on, and more importantly had a positive outcome from it. It gives me hope that there is light at the end of this dark scary tunnel.

@ladee thank you i feel such comfort coming to the forum, its so nice to have people who truely understand how your feeling at points in time.. My therapist knows about my abuse being outed by the medical doctor, she wasnt pleased in the slightest, as you can imagine.

@Kiro thank you so much dor your kind words of support & encouragement. I along with many of us here give ourselves a hard time. When really we shouldnt be. But its so nice to have lovely people like yourself for support and that encouragement to carry on through =)

@Riot thank you for the book recomendation, ill have alook later and order it =) i find opening up so so hard, and still hold onto all the information. Which worries me slightly as its asif its still in there, nagging away. Maybe saying it out load would ease the burden?! Im just not too sure at the moment. I think ill go ahead using the blind therapist technique at the minute and hopefully if built up thay trust i maybe able to start letting the information out??
I wish you well on your therapy journey, if i can ever be of help and support please just message me =)

 

[claire east]

I honestly didnt think of that! Makes complete sense now, as in all honesty i would probably be the one...

Thank you @claire east, its nice to have somewhere to go where people understand.... My...

You will get there its a long road I'm not going say it's gonna be easy but I'm here for you if ya need to cjat

 

[Terri Armstrong]

Hello Everyone!! Felt like reaching out to all of you today. I have not been very energetic today.. The sun is out and I should get some fresh air... maybe I will after I finish my post. I continue on my journey toward a renewed relationship with family and friends. I know that I am not the only "Secret Survivor" out here, which by the way, is the name of the book my therapist gave me back in the mid to late 80's, as I was dealing with my abuse.. I have to watch my diet also... have problems with any sugar, fruit, yeast, or fungus promoting product. Sometimes, I think that something I ate is what is making me feel badly. I had allergy testing to confirm my diagnosis... I am off allergy shots and sublingual drops at this point in time... I had a relatively small slice of sugar free cherry pie night before last; made with no sugar, but the cherries have sugar in them... this is probably why I am feeling down... see, it doesn't always have to be our brain!!! I try to remember that my body is important too.. so, all that being said, I think we all need to remember that fresh air, exercise, meditation, reading good materials and staying away from the television when politics is on.... may help us live more peaceful lives. I really stay away from those crazy "talk shows" that pertain to all kinds of horrible choices that people make. God Bless You All...