The things from the past that I wanted forgotten were actually things that I was completely unable to cope with in the past, and as such, used to throw up my hands and tell my partner to piss off about it. He did not understand the level of inability that my father had left me with by refusing to educate me about finances, social interactions, bills, etc.
And as such, my track record in the past to quite rightly be unable to understand, retain, cope or independently function within those topics should be forgotten.
It was not my fault that I was hindered by my parents manipulating my relationship, re triggering old traumas and bombarding me to the point where my frontal lobes shut down and I was operating on purely instinctual parts of my brain, unable to retain, comprehend or interact with any complex topic or person.
My psychiatrist is in awe of the fact that we have lasted as long as we have, and now that I am immensely improved, I am able to tackle, comprehend and sometimes independently tackle those topics that before rendered me inert and immediately shut down.
