Has Anyone Had Hallucinations At Moment Of Trauma ?

[Deleted member 24866]

Just curious.. I am having some new testing done in March coming up. Been living with what I feel is an incorrect diagnosis for awhile (schizoaffective)- but I don't think it matters as I am secure with some decent medication. But I have had multiple counselors suggest it was trauma. No shrink ever took the time to hear my story. My new therapist does see a lot of trauma issues and is far more helpful as a specialist.

A counselor also suggested it was something that happened sometimes in traumatic events. Not to many issues apart from the initial hallucinations. Twice I hallucinated screams.. one time I am certain they weren't mine while I was hiding -following being chased. The other could have been me just -outside of myself I don't know.(I remember this one prior to the gang rape-3 guys) (was like someone opened my ears to what you'd think hell would sound like.. only it was screams and cries of women and children) I was 15.

One time it was visual.. but It was REALLY weird, I felt it in my body too.. this one was confusing, thought perhaps it was an angel, didn't help I was very submerged with the church at the time and the person I was with (X husband) claimed he was seeing angels also, later changing his mind and calling them demons. (marital rape issues-and already traumatized by rape) Just curious.. wondering if its normal or if I have multiple issues.

 

[Deleted member 24866]

I guess being honest about it, in trigger moments if I do not acknowledge and confront it will fester and my dissociations will escalate over about 5 weeks..starting with simple inability to focus..moving towards vexation/obsessive thoughts/ and will get to a point over the weeks I am severly dissociating (though I have lived with this for so long I see the pattern and can usually go back and face it and it goes away) it borders hallucination.. like I think everyone is talking about it, joking about the trauma.. this becomes my eye opener..oh, this really hurt and triggered me severly) Now I am a bit more in tune to where my meds are decreased to half, and I feel much more in control over it. The dissociation helps as I can sit back and self analyze and just listen to the weirdness of the moment in isolation and learn about myself. I usually will lose about 10-15 lbs during that 5 weeks so that is a sign also.

 

[Barconian]

Yes I have. When I had psychosis, everything I believed was true, but was not true at that time. I couldn't tell the difference between rational and e-rational thought patterns. My daughter helped me by telling me when I was e-rational and I believed her... After some time, I learnt to find the boundary between the two!

 

[Deleted member 24866]

I can honestly say seeing what I thought was an angel did throw me into a psychotic delusion for a time, -during this time I had no support. My family was estranged- as my X thought they messed me up and it was "American culture" -he was Egyptian. and saw that I had no friends at the end as control freaks do. I was like a shut in before the incident of hallucinating which occurred during his last rape of me. However the hallucination served a purpose to get me to go.. I would have stayed and died.

I had no job, I left with nothing.. all I had was a belief God didn't want me there, hence an angel/demon. But his name meant "Amen" and with the last name given through marriage my name meant "victory with the help of God"- in my head I felt like Babylon for awhile.. the great whore. (probably cause I was trafficked as a child) took like 2 years to get a clear head!!!

Apart from being a mommy prior to this I had been fasting and praying like the same as monks. 6 times a day..and fasting over 1/2 the year. My faith was all I had during the end of the marriage. that's another story getting past organized religion, though I have found some value in the teachings, and still believe God has pulled me through. I choose to not see a necessity for the intervention of the limitations of man made constructs. God is there whether I am in a building or not.

Also learning about and accepting this illness and the mind has been very helpful, not to mention my patterns and being more in touch with my self.

The divorce was over 9 years ago now.

 

[Ed Norton]

Although it is not in the DSM, many clinicians and researchers have reported psychotic symptoms with trauma and PTSD. A quick search of google is quite revealing.I myself became quite delusional sometime after my trauma.

Also, take a look at my poll in PTSD polls " Positive pyschotic symptoms and PTSD". The results are interesting, at least to me.

 

[Deleted member 24866]

@Ed Norton Thank you.. I will take a look and do some searching!