Has Your Weight Fluctuated Because Of PTSD?

[Deleted member 1860]

YES! I gained a ton of weight!

How? Twinkies and Ho-Ho's. LOL, I'm just kidding.

Actually, I didn't leave my condo much for about 2 or 3 months this winter because my anxiety was so bad. Hence I got little to no exercise and packed on the pounds. Now my anxiety is so much better and I'm eating right, exercising, and taking care of myself much more in general. The weight is finally coming off!

 

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Lost weight, I just stopped eating people who have rewarded themselves with food in some form at some point in their lives tend to have that problem? What do you think?

For example when I was smaller I used to think:"If I do this right, I can eat that". Not half as serious as some of the other eating disorders, but you get the idea.

thankyou for this post I almost forgot my folic tab and I have some of the same points and issues that you have written about here, i think well I know that if I am up to anything that is good and I feel I have done well then I think it is ok for me to eat something that is healthy and take crea fo myself I find that if I dont ...then I dont eat, and the weight can go on doing that because then I also get down and then almosr binge well not binge but then I also eat a load of crap and dont take care fo myself at all properly. And so my weight goes up again... inpart because it-my body stores it down as fat in case it wont get to see food again in a while. I understand some eating disorders very well...when I waS YOUNGER i WAS SO For sure SOME kind of eating disordered...I was well I know now I was terribly underweight and totally believed I was fat and hideous.. I look at clothes from then and photos and think how the hell did no one see that either?


i am struggling very badly with again today, I feel undeserving of anything, of food ...anything and yesterday despite making a meal..one that was healthy and looked and when I tasted it was ok...how come I just didnt and couldnt eat it... i think I didnt deserve it is why.

I know I have had days here when I have worked and felt ok I can eat...and so I have begun...it has not been meals or anything big ...but I have for sure ben looking after myself recently and my weight has started to drop again which is good because I had gotten fat. And no I am not mis identifying that... I had gotten fat.

The beauty of it at the moment...well until now ...is that I had begun to look after myself...and now I just dont think I can again. It is closely tied into self worth esteem confdence...being screwd around and also my mental state...I knwo all this and so I am back to trying to mindfull eat just a few grapes or a handful of cheerios ...just something to keep tyring to look after myself.


I went food shoping last night with me ex... I have no choice on this as no support other than him again....and this itself makes me ill. He does my head in and it spiralls me down. I have stopped him comiung here in the past and it has worked fine...but again I am on my own with this and the suppost worker has gone and my cc is just not bothered... I am trying today as I write this to getacross to him how this is affecting me..that I need for him to be consistent and not fck me about any more... I have been force fed placebos and it is choking me... Ironic use of metaphor there I know but hey..

I am struggling here again and I know that this is it... i know that I have to try harder and harder but it is killing me doing this over and over again in my own. I just cant, I need something, something.. I just dont know what any more, and I ahve no idea how to find it either. or even what it might look like... I just know what it doesnt look like is all right now




Apology;
iam sorry if I have maybe taken this off topic or let go and go on too much maybe I should take this back to my private diary... I dont know what to do at the moment. so I apologise if this is in any way inappropriate to write or put out here.

 

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oh I meant to add that I don ot reward myself with rubbish food it is that that I might eat when I absolutely have to ..it is not a reawrd at all... it is desperation... and I know that...and because it is or becomes infrequent and is rubbish it does me no good what so ever either.

When my son was home it was easier in some ways because I had to look after him and so i would cook and eat beter then, of course that was hit and miss also as to whetrher I actually ate the food I had prepared myself because he would be out or about more, and so again I would let this slide for me...and not bother about it ...until desperation would take hold again and so... repeating pattern

hah!! I know its not funny but hey rep eating pattern again!!!

 

[Jen93]

I've always been a low weight- I'm a preemie, (premature baby) and it's normal for us to have a low weight throughout childhood/adulthood. I'm 5"1, and when I get stressed, or have flashbacks I get nauseous. I'm also a vegetarian, and one of my triggers is having to use a knife and fork. I've gone from about 100 lbs (I've never weighed more- I DON'T HAVE AN EATING DISORDER) to about 90-93 lbs. I end up eating cheese strings for lunch and soup or vegetables/ finger food like french fries, quinoa or crackers for dinner.

Also, I'm guessing the adrenaline due to PTSD/ fight or flight mode makes it easier to burn calories- that's just an opinion though.

 

[NIKI]

When I was on medication I gained 70lbs. it was awful!!! I was on it for 15 years and fat for 15 years. I went off the meds and lost all the weight. (I didn't even know it was the meds making me gain weight)

Now I don't like to eat because I am terrifed of gaining any weight. I am proud of myself when I don't eat. It is to the point that I like when my stomach feels empty. I feel like I am being good for doing that. I'm mad at myself after I eat something. This make me feel that I am bad. :(

 

[landytoday]

Lost weight. over 50# in 10 months. 5'8. So I am barely in lowest range female of my height can be. Like Salu said "I just stopped eating when I broke" My Husband and son force me to eat. And I LOVE food. I used to be this awesome cook. I can't even follow the recipe off a box without rereading it over and over. I was assaulted at work by a mental patient.Unconsious, multiple injuries, staples in head and many goose eggs, kicked in ribs and low back and blah blah blah. I know I have PTSD , and MDD and a couple other DX they gave me, but does everyone's PTSD cause such significant cognitive challenges? I had an MRI of brain 3 months after assault. Showed lesions that could be caused by trauma, MS, or migraines. I have never had a migraine until this. And now that I have had migraines I know for a fact I would have NEVER suffered through one without seeking medical attention. Had same family clinic for 13 years. No history of migraines. But the neurologist said "pre-existing migrains" I know I can fight it but as crazy as it sounds I am just too tired. I am wondering if I can't think because of the PTSD or the lesions on brain. I think I went WAY off track here so I opologize. I agree with what Salu said and agree. I think something in my head broke, really broke and just don't feel like eating anymore

 

[Anna]

Yes. After the trauma I lost weight and had a BMI of 17 at one point.

After many years I have managed to get my BMI up to 22. I tend to stop eating when stressed.

 

[TSG]

I have gained 30# so far. Before, I was very active. I worked out every day; tennis, kayaking, rollerblading, walking, biking, going to the gym...now, I have to fight to walk out my door at all and can only do so when accompanied. I am a prisoner in a home I don't want to be in so I just eat and sit, sit and eat. The only exercise I get now is getting out of bed and walking to my desk, from my desk to the kitchen or bathroom.

 

[ericaboo]

I'm losing weight - in a not healthy way. The anxiety that came on when my therapist knocked my walls down makes me feel like food's making me choke. I just quadrupled my meds and actually feel hungry again, but food is gross. I was overweight for years - now I'm going to have to find a correct weight and figure out how you maintain that...

 

[LiamM]

My weight is in a constant state of fluctuation. I'm always somewhere between 40 - 48 kg. one day I'll be 45, and the next I'll be 40. I'm 5'1", so it's not all that bad...

 

[Anna]

I am 5"1 too. I used to weigh 43kg and now I weigh 55kg. My weight fluctuates between 53-55 kgs weekly. Depends on how much I drink and how often I take a dump LOL

Before the trauma I weigh 46kgs, and then went down to 40kgs. As said above the BMI is best to go by in my book as it shows a healthy weight. After I had my family (2 kids) I weighed 50kgs and since taking the pill 55kgs. I am happy with my weight now as I work out and have quite a lot of muscle mass. I find if I stress the weight drops off. During my training in my job I went down to 52kgs. I tend to lose weight when stressed.

 

[Beverly G.]

I have been wondering about the issue of weight. I lost 100lbs soon after my diagnosis. I did it through anarexia and bulimia. My therapist treats it like it is not really a big deal because i now weigh 140lbs and I look ok to him but I still feel shame.