Sorry i totally forgot to reply to this cuz im dumb lmao.i get both of these, pretty much all the time lately- they seem to go in spurts.
normal for ptsd? probably.
normal for me? yep.
and they both suck, and usually throw me off for a long time after I wake up. Sometimes i end up waking up from the latter type and go straight into a flashback. Or dissociate away the mornings.
The last couple of weeks they haven't been sticking with me or bugging me nearly as much, which I think is what 'normal' people with 'normal' nightmares feel. More just like, "wtf was that about?! moving on now."
I completely buy into the theory that our brains are rapidly sorting through, sifting, organizing and deleting short term and long term memories when we hit REM so it makes sense these disturbing things are going to become really shitty dreams.
I don't think it means anything but that, but yeah, I get the whole 'questioning' the feelings thing. I'm a guy, into women only, and the abuser that I end up having fantasy nightmares about is male and i still question my feelings.
the nightmare/fantasy ones? no. not at all.do those nightmares feel like nightmares when you're having them
doesn't sound bad, makes complete sense.And it made me feel a little better knowing that someone else had a similar experience, as bad as that sounds.
Yeah i do and i've mentioned it but she didn't seem to know much about dreams or she just didn't think it was very important.I wouldn't make too much out of your dreams. Its just how your brain is processing stuff. I know it's easy to feel shameful about it but my therapist and I worked a lot on this area and he made me feel very at easy with this. Even with maladative daydreaming (even sexual ones about him) because it's the only way for me to feel safe right now. The brain is a very intresting organ but dreams are not something you can control thus no need to feel shame over it.
Do you have a therapist? Would be a great topic to bring up to them if so. Start working on this with them to help you on how you feel about your dreams as a whole.
Interpreting dreams is a bit like reading your horoscope, which is why she probably didn’t go there;)
Hell yea and when society portrays arousal etc as good makes you feel worse that body reacts/reacted in that waythe nightmare/fantasy ones? no. not at all.
which adds a whole other layer of shame, disgust, and confusion to the matter. :bag:
nope, they're pretty much pleasant fantasy dreams ??
doesn't sound bad, makes complete sense.
The thing is though, i didn't really have good times with my ex. Especially not sexually. I never enjoyed it.
I think the confusion comes from not realizing it was abuse or "assault" until months later.
For every sexual encounter i was dissociating, uncomfortable and in pain. Certain bodily functions even stopped working.
So it's really weird that when im dreaming of him im so at ease, in love, happy and safe.
The theory that my brain is trying to minimize or romanticize these events and this relationship is making a lot of sense...