Sufferer Hello Everyone - Ptsd Again

[SaySomething]

I had a chance to talk to my therapist about the nurse practitioner's ECT suggestion today. She was also surprised by the suggestion. She is going to talk to the nurse on my behalf, about my fears about ECT in general, as well as my difficulty expressing any negativity or disagreement. I see my nurse tomorrow, and I've been sick with worry about it since the last visit. Now, I feel a bit more positive. The therapist and I have agreed that as long as I continue talk therapy and can contract for safety, ECT is not necessary at this point. T will not abandon me should I choose NOT to pursue ECT. It was a validating conversation, and I'm so glad I forced myself to bring it up in therapy.

It was a good appointment, in general. T understands my need to manage my anxiety, so we will focus on that for the time being. We set a few simple goals ... getting out of bed every day, showering, getting dressed, eating healthy, leaving the house, even if it's just for ten minutes. Baby steps. Despite my notes, I forgot to ask her about CBT or DBT. That frustrates me a bit, but I'll put it back at the top of my list for the next appointment. I hate this feeling of starting over at square one, but it's where I am. Maybe, at least, I will move past this phase more quickly this time around.

Now, if only tomorrow's appointment with the nurse practitioner goes well. Fingers crossed!

 

[greenleaf]

I hope it goes well, and will be thinking about you! Your T had a great response.

It's possible that the NP would be mortified if she realized how triggering, or at least frightening, such a suggestion might be for many ptsd folks. Then again, it's possible she has no concept at all what you're going through. (Ugh.)