Hello, I'm Back...

[Chincho]

Hi! I don't know if any of you remember me because I haven't been here in a while.

I spent the last year looking after my husband who had lung cancer. He passed away on Jan. 26.

Through all that time my PTSD seemed to go away, although we all know it never goes away.

I kept asking my psichiatrist to take me off my meds and she always replied "No, you just wait." And of course, she was right. The old PTSD monster has reared his ugly head again. And here I am. Luckily, I have experience fighting him and I know all the punches he can throw at me. But still, I just wish I could have some time to myself.

So I guess I will be coming back here often again. Lurk a lot and maybe post a bit.

 

[Nam]

Hi. Welcome back. I'm another that joined, got better, and now I'm back. I'm sorry for your loss.

I find it interesting that your PTSD monster is male. :)

 

[Chincho]

Thank you @Nam!

I hadn't noticed, but you're right. Now that I think about it, it's most definitely male.

 

[garden]

Welcome back, I just came back after an absence too.

This time I've got some tools that I didn't before, however, It seems harder for me this time, maybe because I felt I was doing really well, and It's more disappointing this time to have fallen back into these symptoms... I don't know.

I hope that you find comfort here.

 

[darrenS]

arent all monsters male :)

 

[WildMermaid]

Welcome back @Chincho I hope you find the answers and comfort you need here. I nursed my mom through cancer and through her passing, and during that time I barely noticed my own PTSD, I understand your conflicted feelings. I'm so very sorry for your loss, and truly hope you find some peace in the chaos.

 

[StarChild]

Dear Chincho, I'm so deeply sorry for your loss and for everything you had and still have to go through. But I'm also relieved, that you had the strength to return and to reach out for support. So this time, your beautiful avatar means, that you don't have to "give" but that some people here might take your hand in their hands, to let you know and "feel", that you're not alone in all this.

Welcome back my friend. You were so truly missed.

 

[The Albatross]

Very sorry for your loss @Chincho and welcome back.

 

[Deleted member 28403]

I'm sorry for your loss, and for you getting worse again, hopefully this place gives you some much needed support.


The PTSD symptoms going away and the jumping up again, I went through that. Quite a fitting song would be Queen Anne's Revenge by Flogging Molly...

 

[Ronin]

I'm sorry for your loss, and hoping that you find support and comfort here, @Chincho. Welcome back, from a newbie. Pleased to meet you.

 

[Chincho]

Thank you for your nice replies everyone! It feels good to be back under the circumstances, almost like coming home.