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[Serenitea]

This is my introduction post. Hello, world. About me. I've been dealing with depression, bipolar disorder, and PTSD since I was in grade school. I thought I had most of it under control. The suicidal thoughts, the panic attacks, the mood swings. After you deal with it all your life, it just becomes second nature. Know what I mean? You know what to do to get the panic to go away. What to think to stop the thoughts (think nothing, feel nothing)
I've never been good at talking to therapists. When they ask me questions, I lie. I hate talking to them. So a friend suggested this forum. I won't babble much longer, but recently things have bad again.
I'm not sure what I'm expecting from the forums, I suppose a safe place to share and communicate with others that may understand me.

 

[Chimera]

Welcome @Serenitea to the forums. I believe you can find what you're seeking here, support, understanding and healing run all through the site.

Take all the time you need to look around and read what speaks to you.

 

[EveHarrington]

Welcome to the forum! :)

 

[Deleted member 28403]

Welcome to the forums :hug: I hope this place helps you. It's very useful because of the bulk amount of people who feel similar and understand. There is a lot of advice and support to be found here :) I hope that this amazing community helps you as much as it helped me, reading all the similar stories, and learning a lot along the way. Hugs if you accept :hug:

 

[MaybieJules]

This is my introduction post. Hello, world. About me. I've been dealing with depression, bipolar dis...

Hi. I'm Jules. I was just diagnosed with ptsd. This is all new to me but the familiarity of what you posted I know all to well. I also suffered with being calls bipolar I don't think I am. But everyone else thinks so. I also suffered with manic depression. And attempted suicide once. I woke up in the hospital. Sad lonely and surrounded by people who love me. I just didn't know how to feel my feelings. I haven't used anything besides hate and rage and anger in So long I forgot how to. I see a psychotherapist now. I don't lie to her but I don't tell her everything quite yet. I will soon.it seems to help. And I was court ordered because I can't stop getting into fights. So I'm trying to make it work. Being diagnosed really opened my eyes as to how to work on ME. I hope you find peace and help soon! I hope this forum helps you. And I hope it helps me. I have two kids I want to raise with ambition goals and direction in a fun loving home. I hope I can find find comfort and give comfort here. I am Just happy to have hope now. And to know how to be happy about having it :) ✌

 

[intothelight]

@Serenitea Welcome! :)

 

[The Woman]

Hello, maybe you need more than counselling, I know when I had mine I didn't want anyone just repeating what I had said back to me, I wanted answers and reasons, no one knows you like you, maybe something a little deeper such as psychology or psychiatry would help, but in the meantime, there is nothing more comforting to know your not alone.

 

[UnKnown-Self]

Welcome @Serenitea :-) Lots of understanding, awesome folks here.