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[ASR]

I am new to this forum so please bear with me. I've lived with PTSD for going on 5 years now after being shot in the line of duty by a fellow police officer. That was the end of my 23 year carrer and the start of my nightmares. I've been under doctors care ever since but I find it very,very hard to let go of my career at that lest. More often than not when I try to sleep my dreams go back to working answering radio calls and making police related decisions. This goes on and on. I have a very hard time relating to people and socially due mix well.

So thats about it I broke the ice.

 

[KP the nut]

Hi ASR and welcome to the forum.

 

[Lady of Longbourn]

Welcome to the forum. :)

 

[discarded]

Welcome to the forum. 23 years is a long time to have served in the police force and it will be a part of you always I would think. Great to hear you are under the care of a medical professional. Hopefully you will gain plenty of support here.

 

[safenow]

Hello, ASR. Welcome to the PTSD Forum. Happy you got in with someone you can work with. 23 years is a long time, and I believe it will always be a part of who you are. You can't just shut it off like a light switch. I personally want to thank you for all you did while you were active. I have chronic Post Traumatic Stress Disorder from Multiple Traumas.

Relax, and look around. There is lots of good information here, and many good, supportive people. If you have any questions, feel free to ask. If you see anything you want to contribute to, feel free to do so. We all try to support each other around here.

 

[ms spock]

Hello ASR and Welcome to the Forum!

 

[ASR]

Thank you very much for your posts. I went to the doctor yessterday and he doubled my dose of lexapro because he say's i'm depressed so we will see how that works. All I know it get pretty spooky around this time of the year and at times it down right scarry.

 

[NarcSis]

If its trauma anniversary related anxiety/ depression it's pretty normal, I get a little out of sorts in early spring, just your beautiful subconscious fighting you. :)

Welcome, there are a lot of people here who understand your fear, anxiety and depression - we just get it. Thanks for "joining the club". :)

 

[ASR]

23 years is a long time, and I believe it will always be a part of who you are. You can't just shut it off like a light switch.

Thank You very much for the kind words. I know its a lot to deal with but at times its just so overwhelming but I try to do the best I can. Its just really hard turning that switch off and every time I see a police car it sort of triggers everything again.

 

[safenow]

every time I see a police car it sort of triggers everything again.

Of course it does. That is normal. I'm just sorry you had to experience what you did. I'm sure you are doing the best you can. I think we all do. It's just that some crap is so darn overwhelming, it's hard to keep going.

Just tell yourself "I can do this." Then keep on keeping on. Talk to your therapist, and try to learn the things that can help you cope with where you are. Baby steps my friend. I do know that's hard to hear. But for now, it's the best you can expect of yourself.

I'm glad you are talking (writing) about things.

 

[therapybankrupt]

So thats about it I broke the ice.

It only takes breaking the ice to find out what can happen here. Welcome ASR.

Hope you find some healing in this forum. It has helped me in so many ways. Check out the Wiki if you haven't already. My first step was understanding PSTD. The wiki is where I found a lot of information. I could not help myself until I understood the diagnosis. Being on here I have gotten a good grip on what is necessary to overcome the ruminations in the day and night.

TB

 

[Toria]

Hello ASR and welcome. As the others have already said, 23 years is a big chunk of anyone's life to spend doing anything - let alone a job that you love.

My Husband was in the Army for 22 years. He's been out for 10 years now but still refers to it in the present tense and as "we" and "us". It will always be a big part of who he is, and I personally think that - proving it doesn't hurt you emotionally - it is something that you should be very proud of.