So I'm here again in his state. We saw each other yesterday, it was nice, but like friends. He asked me to come a day early and he'd pick me up at the airport, but then backed out. I made other arrangements. I'm actually here to visit a friend but of course wanted to see him. So we spent yesterday together. Today he answered my first text, but hasn't
answered anymore. Sigh. I go home Tues. I know he was in a bad place in Oct. I thought maybe he was a little less symptomatic now. I just don't know. I'm feeling like I should just go back home and just be his friend. He knows he means more than that to me, but I don't know if I'm more than that to him.
The friend I'm staying with is grieving the loss of her daughter. She's extremely symptomatic, and I'm just hear to listen to her. I don't bring anything up, but if she brings it up I participate in the conversation. She's very stressed and he still may be suicidal. Me? I'm drained. I can't wait to go back home, and for the holidays to end so I can hibernate. I guess I'm just on here venting. I have nobody to talk to.
answered anymore. Sigh. I go home Tues. I know he was in a bad place in Oct. I thought maybe he was a little less symptomatic now. I just don't know. I'm feeling like I should just go back home and just be his friend. He knows he means more than that to me, but I don't know if I'm more than that to him.
The friend I'm staying with is grieving the loss of her daughter. She's extremely symptomatic, and I'm just hear to listen to her. I don't bring anything up, but if she brings it up I participate in the conversation. She's very stressed and he still may be suicidal. Me? I'm drained. I can't wait to go back home, and for the holidays to end so I can hibernate. I guess I'm just on here venting. I have nobody to talk to.
