Conscious_water
New Here
Hi all, im new here. Over the years I have survived violence, rape, other sexual abuse, torture and bullying. I Have been diagnosed with PTSD and other psychological and neurological conditions. I've suffered from various traumas from early in life and throughout my life into adulthood (first experienced being sexually abused at school age 5 or 6) though only more recently been diagnosed with PTSD as it took years to speak up about my experiences. I'm quite scared to start up here though im also quite tired of hiding from the world and the alienation and madness that can bring me. I have a wonderful support network, my friends and family, along with professionals who are helping me get my life together, though I still struggle every day, even with the "smaller" things like talking or being around other people. Lately my struggle with PTSD has been getting extremely hard to cope with, i didnt know i was going to spiral down this far again and I fear its getting worse and now i am dealing with it without the alcohol... so it's like a new ptsd experience for me in a way, a very scary and painful one where I can see no escape, with no options other than to somehow accept my situation and expand my support network and ride it out (the drink will never be an option again!). im feeling very weak from the constant battles, though this community has been very inspirational to me with the incredible courage and support I've seen on here (hence getting up the courage to join) and as much as i wish noone knew what PTSD is like, im so glad we dont have to do it alone.
Thank you for inspiring me!
Thank you for inspiring me!