Sufferer Hi, Triggered This Weekend And Reaching Out.

[DeirdreH]

I was helping out on a play this past weekend, that dealt with some serious abuse. I noticed that my sleep was suffering, to the point where last night I was only able to sleep for about an hour or two, and restlessly at that. it didn't hit me right away that my sleep problems might have been associated with the play that I was working on - until I realized that the words I heard as a child were the same as in the play - and some of the situations were identical.

Sometimes I'm a bit slow. And life has been generally good lately, so I suppose that I wasn't on-guard as it were - I wasn't taking care to protect myself from triggering situations. But my work has suffered and my anxiety level is high, and I've been forgetting some important things in life. It's important that I get back on track.

On top of that I'm also bipolar and have my share of other problems (though for the past few years I've managed it without meds), and I don't want to fall apart and wind up back in the hospital over this. So I'm just looking for a place to reach out a bit.

Thanks.

 

[AmyO]

I'm sorry to hear that something you should be enjoying has caused such pain. It is hard (I've found) to realize exactly what your triggers are until it pops up in life. We always have the mental list after the fact of what are triggers are and try to avoid them but something new can show up when we least expect it.

My biggest is that I cannot go shoe shopping where they have steel toed boots on display because I will get the shakes, a raging headache, and jumpy as hell. my ex would have those boots on every time he would beat me and all I can remember some times is that the tread was wearing thin before it smashed into my face.

But I still have found (and this is only one persons opinion) that reaching out like you have is the best way to keep some focus in an otherwise crazy life. Good luck with your play and I hope that even a little closure could come from it as you seem to be facing you ghosts by being involved.

 

[DeirdreH]

Thanks.
I have a toolbox - and I'm using it. I know that about 7 years ago, had this happened, I'd be in the hospital once again now. But it's been a while since I've been triggered like that - it was a bit of a surprise. it's good to know though, that I was able to handle it without letting it ruin my life again.