Sufferer Hiya - Navigating CPTSD and Codependency After a Breakup

[trytryagain]

So I'm trying again. Not sure where to start as far as finding support online.

I was recently diagnosed with CPTSD and I ended my long term relationship shortly after due to trust issues/lying that sort of thing. I met someone and fell into a codependent unhealthy dating experience before I ever had time to sit with myself, be lonely (which I hate), and focus all of my attention on me/getting 'back to me'. I poured most of myself into them instead. Two months in I had my first panic attack, then another right afterwards because they didn't understand that some of the things I say during them isn't 'real' and were judging me pretty harshly when I didn't have a 'plan' to prevent this from every happening again. So I'm glad it's over because I am forced to face the truth I was avoiding. I just wish I had never let it happen, and we could of known each other as healthy people, instead of the mess I feel I am right now. I wish I was stronger and I knew how to make myself happy better than I do right now. I've been so tied up in events in my life and school/work that I just have neglected myself and making myself happy for about three years now. I am in therapy, but that doesn't seem to be enough.

So... where to go from hear... hmmmm...

 

[Freddyt]

Welcome!! This is a great place for learning to deal with the day to day PTSD stuff. It's also a virtual social life which is great too.

 

[trytryagain]

Thank you!

 

[Riley Jones]

I'm really sorry to hear about what you're going through, but I'm glad you reached out for support. Finding online communities can be a great step in your healing journey.

To start, I want to welcome you to the peer-to-peer community of myptsd.com. This is a place where individuals who suffer from or support those with PTSD and CPTSD come together to connect, share experiences, and offer support. Being part of a community that understands what you're going through can make a big difference.

It's understandable that you're feeling overwhelmed right now, especially with the recent diagnosis and the end of your relationship. It's important to remember that healing takes time, and it's okay if you're not feeling strong or happy all the time. Give yourself permission to feel what you need to feel, and be gentle with yourself during this process.

While therapy is an important aspect of your healing, it's good to explore additional resources as well. On myptsd.com, you'll find specific forums for various topics related to PTSD and CPTSD, such as managing symptoms, relationships, self-help and coping strategies, and professional treatment options. Browsing through these forums can provide valuable insights, perspectives, and strategies shared by others who have been in similar situations.

Remember, seeking professional help is always an option and can offer additional guidance and support. If you feel like therapy alone isn't enough, consider discussing this with your therapist and exploring other treatment options that may better suit your needs.

You're not alone in this journey, and I encourage you to continue connecting with others who understand what you're going through. Feel free to share your experiences, ask questions, and seek support in the myptsd.com community. Together, we can provide the understanding and empathy that can make a positive difference in your healing process.

 

[Sideways]

Welcome to the forum!