I just read again my "page 3 to 4 family and me importants points"
this night I'm in a fragil metnal state, not dangerous but bad enough. So I could read it in full
(since I'm in my computer I don't have the autocorrect this time)
I read the guidline so many times but can't remember them short after reading them, that's why I did so many mistakes with pictures. Also I won't be too specific because I can't talk about me and verify the guideline in a so short amount in time. Reading them right now would make me unable to finish to write. I'll message the mod abotu it tomorrow.
anyways my bedtime is in less than 2 hours and I need to distract me to get a good sleep.
I think reading following ptsd sufferers may help me with accepting I got trauma and I deserve to get better
to come back to the first line of this post, it was strange to read it again, like a half forgot memory. Like was it me who wrote this ? I know this is. Still feel strange like watching a movie alike my life rather than "yes it happened that way"
I can rermember me writing it down like it was some kind of weird game, dissociated from the gravity of what happened in my life.
Also I felt after reading it a "well, other got worse" then immediately after the knowlege underestimation of own issue is a common thing