Hope I'll be the last diary I'll ever write

[Givrali]

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[Givrali]

reality hits hard, that's why I was enjoying disociassion

 

[Givrali]

doing my best to forget which day we are to keep the pain not too bad

 

[Givrali]

Ok i fell in love with a fictionnal character again
This time it's Viktor from arcane. I'm at the first act of season 2 but know most of the show (if I didn't spoiled mysef I wouldn't understood a thing)

 

[Givrali]

So I completly projected my father in Viktor from arcane. Well, bad move

 

[Givrali]

Still obsessed by Viktor, I got in touch with one mom's friend I knew before whithout knowing why my father made me eat with her, prossessed things in therapy but still not enought to get a ride of Viktor. I ressent a lot arcane creators for being such tragedy seeker in their show and getting sick of how many people see Viktor and Jayce as romantic partners. Also, Viktor couldn't you just TRY to talk to people sometimes ???

Well I'm very anxious about seeing mom's friend, because it's so complicated to not remember your mother you lived with for your first 9 years

 

[Givrali]

So I'm triggered when seeing people physically hurted

 

[Givrali]

Bad move being obssesed by Viktor then

 

[Givrali]

f*ck my life

 

[Givrali]

I hate having to deal with my life, my T doesn't know if I can ever work in my lifetime. I feel like a tourist

 

[Givrali]

I did what I had to do to survive

 

[Givrali]

(Viktor is a character from arcane)
playing with Viktor can both heal me or shot me dead, it's a dangerous toy way too easy to play with. I keep hurting myself writing him and reading about him