TruthSeeker
Diamond Member
I find myself struggling today. It's not the virus or lack of therapy, I've been out of therapy for years. It's the having to stay home. It is horrible for my mental health. I'm home most of the day with just my 8 year old son and I love him to bits and am there for him but it's hard. I'm a person who likes being around people, it usually calms me, makes me feel happier. Where I live we're only about half a week in to self-isolation too. If I feel like this now, I can't imagine what it's going to be like in one more week or two more weeks. Trying to find new things to reset me and make me happy but it's hard work. :)
I live alone, and to stay emotionally even keeled and grounded, so over the past couple of years...my solution was to stay busy. I had a full calendar before the virus....I keep one on a white board to my bed....then I erased everything when all my plans crashed and burned with this virus. The sheer emptiness of that calendar whiteboard kept me in bed....stuck. I quickly realized that a full calendar, or the concept of a full calendar, and a black and white written schedule were what I needed to keep from falling further into the depressive pits of hell. So, first I created a 10ft walking club, called a couple of friends and we walk as a couple together at scheduled times for 1 hr-one on one side of the road, the other on the other side. The concept of including 10ft picnic with one other person after the walk was too much for my one friend. But the other was good with it. My one friend thought it was too much rule breaking (she's all about following the rules) to brown bag a meal..... Cleaning, like so many others are doing....is not calling to me. I wish it were. Neither is gardening...not my favorite, but it is exercise. So, I'm working on an online business I've been hacking at....for years, and decided to "go to work" on certain times of the day. I still see my T....so that's an appt...and she holds firm to 8 ft. The rules for my area say driving for relaxing is permissible. and there are no restrictions or proximity to home.....so that means day trips out are fine. So, Thursdays are my day out in the car, a self picnic, with nature all day.....and my camera. I drive anywhere in the state I want to go....and just because parks are closed doesn't mean I can't be more creative with places to photograph...All "National Parks" are closed....but people go in anyway to "exercise" and take a walk, which is permissible in this situation.....they keep the gate open to pedestrians.
