How Can You Blame Me?

[Punky143]

Don't get me wrong, I'm all for accepting responsibility and owning up for my faults but I'm so done with everything. Yes I have a child who needs me, I get that but I'm no good right now. I've expressed my frustrations here recently hoping to catch a break but nope, shit continues to hit the fan but not on my account. In March I realized I had DID, then in April out of no where watched my grandmother die in the hospital and to make matters worse, question if it ever happened thanks to the amnesia aspect, then found out my daughter has been sexually assaulted by a person like many we thought we could trust, and when I tell my husband he flat out denies it happend, and now my husband is fired from his job yet again and this time for a dirty pee test he was already warned about but has this arrogant attitude that it won't happen to me and already our marriage suffered. So please someone, shed light on how Im supposed to go on because I'm so done with everything and everyone. I don't need friends because clearly they complicate everything and only disappoint me then just leave. Im done.

 

[Leah123]

I'm so sorry you're buried under so much &%*(.
The only thing I know to say is something my therapist told me with the utmost gravity when I was talking about killing myself: a parent's suicide is the absolute worst trauma a child can suffer, and they never, ever, ever recover from it.

You at your struggling, low-functioning worst is worlds better for your child than you gone. You deserve support and good health and happiness. I hope you will keep reaching out for support to anyone and everyone you can possibly get it from- here, crisis lines, therapist, support groups, any friends, relatives, clergy if so inclined- anyone who can offer you anything toward the care that you deserve.

I care that you're suffering and I hope things get better soon.