I usually enjoy being hypersexual.
When I was married, that meant that whilst we followed the normal 1/5th rule (Sustained LTR = 1/5th of New Relationships; daily becomes weekly, weekly monthly, monthly biannually, biannually once in a blue moon)…. 11 years in we were still having sex daily, unless one of us was sick/injured. Correction, 10 years in. The last year of our marriage I refused to sleep with my now-ex husband. (Come to find? I can have many types of sex. Passionate. Fun. Silly. Relaxing. Sporting. Angry. Loving. Delighting. …But Sad? Is not one of them. And the last year of our marriage I was very, very sad. To be fair? That last year started with the abusive bastard trying to kill me. So I was veeeeery sad. The 3rd time he tried to kill me? I divorced him. The overwhelming majority of my lovers MET my libido, with a mirror of their own. Only 2 of them were abusive. My own stupidity I married one of those two.) A high sex drive, in and of itself, is not a bad thing. The person behind it, is what matters.
But OMFG… if I’m NOT in a relationship, with sex on tap, nor willing to f*ck around outside of a relationship? I’m about climbing the damn walls & losing my damn mind, wanting to claw my eyes out.
PART of that? Is my natural libido being as high as it is.
PART of that is because it has always been such a hands down baseline way that I manage my PTSD >>> see stress cup >>>
The ptsd cup explanation <<< as well as it being my hands down favorite grounding tool.
I was lucky enough to a) come of age in a very sexually liberated culture & b) never hate it, or my own desires… so I have INFINITELY less to contend with, than you do. And still? On. The. f*cking. Ceiling. Or shredding myself. AND all the upticked PTSD symptoms (stress cup). I can only imagine the pain you’re in. The pain? Does. Not. Mean. That the desire/libido is wrong. It’s “just” a natural byproduct of not having an outlet. But the wrong outlet, brings even more trouble/problems. So? It’s yet one more thing to deal with.
Leeeeeeean HARD into exercise, other endorphin driven activities, & stress cup stuff. It will take the edge off. A lot like eating fruit, when you’re thirsty, when there’s nothing to drink. It HELPS. A lot. But true satisfaction only comes from being able to drink your fill.
