I put talk to people here because today Im ok. Another day I might have said I can't deal with it yet. And when I start, I really hope that therapy will help me cope with life better.
I'd like to add though, that I was struggling quite alot with everything over the past couple of weeks, including the label 'ptsd'. But as well as talking on here, I also went and read more about it, including the N.I.C.E guidelines that are aimed at professionals. Its not for everybody, and I can't take in all of the information. But I'm finding that the professional tone that these papers use enables me to seperate the reality of ptsd and therapy, from the psychological and emotional abuse that I've experienced. This seems to be helping.