There is a woman who power drive-handles residential issues/properties issues where I live (for past couple or so yrs. now) and I've lived here will be on my 15th yr. in Sept. That said this power-mongering and money-driven and extremely manipulative sabotaging and attempting to throw others down the well at any/all costs worker is for me all about dominance/control and negative labeling seemingly in order to control anyone who gets in her decision-making and money-scheming cut-throat tactics planning way. So when her decisions/planning directly (and I do mean adversely and directly affects me) I must speak up/out and oh boy! she does not like this at all! I have never in my life seen someone in the professional capacity who uses their position to so rampantly be into negative labeling in order to discourage and dissuade residential persons from speaking up and out! OMG! This woman has black belt in negative labeling others and spreading shade and negativity. So I must speak up for myself and this is so freaking difficult and honestly I absolutely hate having to do this.
However if I don't she seems to be trying to fire start and gaslight (futilely trying to take focus off her bull hockey self) again by using false negative labels against people (and me from time to time) she tries this only when she realizes others are not in full and total agreement with her cruel and harm-filled decisions and/or when she's called on her bull hockey decisions and boy she can sure play dirty and try to hurt seemingly vulnerable victims. I am trying to stand up for what I believe is legally right and fair and just. And she plays dirty tricks/tactics. And this woman has her black belt in nasty business tactics and is oh so performance-driven and based at the cost of whomever and whatever.
By my verbatim articulating her falsified and half-truth and lie speak back to her and showing her falsified information to be baseless and unfounded (bull hockey) thus trying to stand up for myself she is forced to face her bullying and dominance/control lying manipulativetactics. I even email (and NO I do not take pride or any joy whatsoever out of doing so) her bosses (multiple) when she's lying and spreading falsfied bull hockey (pardon expression) about me and/or directly related to me issue(s), and false property information and this is only for when she's in her blood-sucking mode because she has her masters in sadistic bull crap people! Scary!
So again I verbatim quote her word for word negativity garbage and ineffective (for me) lies, and then clarify what I believe and feel and also back this up with grounded factual information, and also stick to who I am as a person (not whom she tries to paint me to be). If I do not stand up to her (take a position - mine she will bulldoze right over me!). And I am NEVER ever going to be how now at times I am cruelly treated by anyone ever again if I can help it. I am not what I'm called and how others attempt to treat me as long as I have what is called a brain and continuing to only try to cultivate a backbone, and self-worth (what's that?) and I'm most definitely who and what I try and answer to and I choose this trying not to allow others to choose who I am for me. I try each day and choose. Choices.
And if I can try and help it, no one in my personal life will ever as I try not to allow them ever again - to attempt to falsely define me, sadistically control me and not allow others to cruelly dominate me ever again. Again, I weigh the risk(s) vs. rewards and then I choose. Yep. It is extremely difficult being forced to from time to time put up with her (anyone's) bull crap when it has directly to do with me because this is suppose to be a professional working relationship. Oh boy, so not so. Verbal abuse is not something I am capable of continuing to be a self-sacrificing willing victim status participant and on the altruistic sacrificial alter for.
For in my past by allowing anyone in this world to repeatedly and continually crap on me I then continued to spiral down into depression and suicidal behaviors over these types of people in my not so distant past. And I can be there today so I must again be proactive and soberly and tactfully try to self-represent and not allow others to define my character, personality, etc.
I am only trying and learning how to not allow another's negative and narcissistic deceptive and controlling behaviors to affect my personal life out here. I have not fully figured this one out and it's an ongoing work in progress on how to protect myself from slander, vicious lies, and deceitful hurting/hurtful people, etc. all the while still trying to cultivate any integrity still intact. Difficult!
This person seems to want to suck the marrow (life) from others' bones so to speak (for I'm not the only one she maliciously behaves like this with) and I'm done with sick vain people who derive screwed-up sadistic pleasure out of verbally tormenting the very life out of others. Been there done that with family. Cooked. Done. If I wasn't proactive in calling her on her bull crap, I'd be this carry-on lunch for this blood-sucking, vulcherous carrion (human) eating raptor.
