How Do You Start These Conversations?

[IamBecca]

I've often wondered about the level of my PTSD? I question everything about myself the older I become, and I contend with myself between remembering my past or pushing it into that soundproof closet in the back of my head like I've done for so long. A very sensitive part of me wants to talk about it and tell my story and the "logical" side argues and screams to shut it all down - in that no one needs to know what cant be helped. I have recently started to see a counselor, whom is patient and kind, and also sees what is left of my family on an individual basis. My battle has been long and I've suffered a complete physical/ mental breakdown in the past couple of years that landed me at the Mayo Clinic in MN. I have been diagnosed with PTSD, massive depression and fibromyalgia to name a few. After a long battle of various prescribed medications, sleep study's and misdiagnoses, I am currently on absolutely no meds and have been for a year or so. I am dealing but have always wanted to extent a hand out to the community of silent soldiers, like myself, with hopes of healing in some way.

 

[hockeygrl17]

I'll take any advice you're willing to offer. I am fighting, but I am always open to more solutions.

 

[ladee]

Silent soldiers. I really like that! But for me I had to break the silence to find so many like me. As sad as that made me that there are so many of us, it has given me so much strength to continue.
Very glad you are here and you will be heard and supported. Gentle hugs if you accept.

 

[IamBecca]

Thank you both. I dont have much advice aside of the fact that medications didnt work for me. I have had to deal with multiple traumas all wrapped into about 4-5 years when i was young but it some how molded me into who i am now. Good or bad.