One of the biggest things I'm noticing in my short time here on the forum is how different our symptoms are. Different ways things manifest which I assume has many variables. I'm sure it has a lot to do with the kind of trauma (one time incident or on going) and our age/maturity level at the time of the trauma.
What I'm really curious about is hypervigilance. When I was being diagnosed by my T and we talked about this topic, she kept saying " it must be so tiring always doing that". I kept saying nope it doesn't bother me. She kept going on about it and it made me feel a bit abnormal.
For me it is constantly going on. There is part of my brain scanning at any given moment. It's not a conscious effort. Think of your computer in front of you. Your on internet explorer (or similar program) viewing this but there are other programs running in the background like the clock for instance. For me internet explorer is what ever I'm engaged in and the clock in the back ground is my hyper vigilance. It's always there somewhere scanning.
My hyper vigilance doesn't seem like paranoia to me. It just gathers information so I can respond quickly to a situation. I can't imagine not doing it partly because how long I've been doing it. It's so effortless that most times I don't see it as a bad thing. Is this normal? Is it possible I'm not giving it enough credit and it is doing harm? How does hyper vigilance manifest for you?
What I'm really curious about is hypervigilance. When I was being diagnosed by my T and we talked about this topic, she kept saying " it must be so tiring always doing that". I kept saying nope it doesn't bother me. She kept going on about it and it made me feel a bit abnormal.
For me it is constantly going on. There is part of my brain scanning at any given moment. It's not a conscious effort. Think of your computer in front of you. Your on internet explorer (or similar program) viewing this but there are other programs running in the background like the clock for instance. For me internet explorer is what ever I'm engaged in and the clock in the back ground is my hyper vigilance. It's always there somewhere scanning.
My hyper vigilance doesn't seem like paranoia to me. It just gathers information so I can respond quickly to a situation. I can't imagine not doing it partly because how long I've been doing it. It's so effortless that most times I don't see it as a bad thing. Is this normal? Is it possible I'm not giving it enough credit and it is doing harm? How does hyper vigilance manifest for you?