How I Dream

[GreenJeans]

1. Lucid Dreams - I remember everything and everyone. Pretty typical really. Most nights.

2. Night Terrors- my abuser whose death caused my PTSD frequently taunts and torments me. They scream and belittle me. They harass me and embarass me in front of people. This is mostly what occured when they were alive.

3. Sunshine and Puppy Dogs/ Screaming and yelling- these are by far the weirdest. I dream about one thing, the thing or subject I usually remember but on some other level I am dreaming of something with lots of conflict. My partner and several others have witnessed these disturbing dreams where I will have entire conversations or entire angry and verbally aggressive arguments with someone. I never remember the second dream. Those around me certainly do.

4. Dreams that involve someone who will die in the near future. I guess you would call these premonitions.

Does anyone experience #2 in particular?

Also, for a period of time I was waking every night at the same time. Usually 3am. Now I sleep through the night mostly.

 

[GreenJeans]

I should also mention I no longer like to be touched, especially my head, or cuddle and if the blankets get twisted I freak out.

 

[Privateer]

I have nightmares quite often. They come in two flavours:

1. Familiar places burning and ruined. Smoke and flames on the horizon. A powerful but unidentified enemy is approaching and I'm in command of a small unit tasked with delaying their advance while the civilian population get away behind our lines. We can hear the fighting in the distance, see the tracer arcing through the sky, but I always wake up before we contact the enemy.

2. I'm in a strange dream version of Aberdeen or one of the surrounding villages. It's dark and people are all running frantically to get inside and hide. Some terrible, dark and nameless Thing is coming. Some force or disaster, I'm never sure. All we know is that it is terrible beyond words.
All I know is that I must get my family to somewhere safe before I go and join those who intend to face It, whatever It may be.

These nightmares have been going on my whole adult life and I have no idea what they mean.