How to accept good things and success

[mylunareclipse]

After being in the same work place for eight long year, which included many years of being bullied and put down, I am finally applying for new jobs in a new state.

The thing is the experience has been amazing. Nothing like I could have even imagined it to be. The connection I felt to my new potential employers and coworkers was amazing. They loved my work so far so much that that they couldn’t stop telling me. They also kept saying how much they also liked me as a a person and wished I could join their place. I have been feeling so surprised and speechless at all this. How is this happening??????
The thing is I felt very happy but then I will wake up at night panicked that something bad and terrible has happened, though nothing bad has happened, just amazing opportunities that I will have to choose from.
I am also scared of the future. A future that is not amongst my toxic and dysfunctional people that constantly put me down. I don’t know how to function in a stress free environment. How do I teach myself to accept the good things like is throwing at me and to learn how to function in a nurturing environment?

 

[Kubash16]

No good advice, but I get this. Like imposters syndrome. Not feeling confident in your own ability and feeling like others are lying, placating, or just straight up delusional.