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Please bear with my spelling as I am dyslexic.
I'm trying to find advice from people who have been through this.
I already have CPTSD from another trauma 25 years ago where I put a rapist who broke into the house for 9 years at the old bailey.
24 years later I'm back with an alarm around my neck connected to every policeman in the district.
I had a 1 years relationship with a man I went to school with when I was 13, I finished with him after he became abusive.
Little did I know he was a narcissist with a history of stalking women and a list of criminal offenses.
I only found out with Claire's law that was revealed to me by police.
He stalked me for 5 months, where he tampered with my car so I nearly crashed.
Tried to poison my cat by putting open sardines cans through the hedge.
Threaten to kill me and then himself .
Damaged and stole my property and put used condoms outside my locked gate on valentines day.
I lived with a crowbar under my bed as he threatened to burn down my flat.
At one point the police said you have to get out as we can't protect you.
I had a non-molestation order in place, he broke it.
I lived in fear of my life.
Now he is on remand in prison and sentencing is due 3 days before my 50th birthday.
I feel my future is bleak.
They are already talking about a restraining order for when he is released!
His mother lives 5 doors down from me.
I really don't know how much trauma I can take.
Living with an alarm around my neck twice in my life has really messed me up.
My Ptsd is on overload, I feel completely alone.
Anyone who has had an experience and ways of coping to carry on? please. share.
I'm trying to find advice from people who have been through this.
I already have CPTSD from another trauma 25 years ago where I put a rapist who broke into the house for 9 years at the old bailey.
24 years later I'm back with an alarm around my neck connected to every policeman in the district.
I had a 1 years relationship with a man I went to school with when I was 13, I finished with him after he became abusive.
Little did I know he was a narcissist with a history of stalking women and a list of criminal offenses.
I only found out with Claire's law that was revealed to me by police.
He stalked me for 5 months, where he tampered with my car so I nearly crashed.
Tried to poison my cat by putting open sardines cans through the hedge.
Threaten to kill me and then himself .
Damaged and stole my property and put used condoms outside my locked gate on valentines day.
I lived with a crowbar under my bed as he threatened to burn down my flat.
At one point the police said you have to get out as we can't protect you.
I had a non-molestation order in place, he broke it.
I lived in fear of my life.
Now he is on remand in prison and sentencing is due 3 days before my 50th birthday.
I feel my future is bleak.
They are already talking about a restraining order for when he is released!
His mother lives 5 doors down from me.
I really don't know how much trauma I can take.
Living with an alarm around my neck twice in my life has really messed me up.
My Ptsd is on overload, I feel completely alone.
Anyone who has had an experience and ways of coping to carry on? please. share.