How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[becvan]

My thoughts go out to you YA, It will work out fine..

bec

 

[cookie]

thoughts and prayers, ya

 

[Marlene]

YA, best of luck with surgery and you'll be in my thoughts.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

WOW! I'm blown away by all your support!
Thank you so much, (all my fingers and toes are crossed too, lol)

I don't know what much else to say other than... you guys are a great boost to my day... even with all this crap going on... I can flip back to these last posts and smile.

 

[Deleted member 93]

Y&A you should not be surprised! You should know we are all crazy about you :)

My day. Sleep! I slept about 5 hours last night woo hoo. Then went back to bed this mid morning and slept more until this afternoon. I did not feel rested from this afternoon, maybe too much sleep? But I needed it! Hubs was great at keeping kids at bay and doing laundry and now he is cooking supper, so no complaints except headache and backache. He is not sullen about it at all. We are trying to rest me up to see if I can hang going out to breakfast in the morning with his parents. I think a lot of my attacks were helped along with being so tired.

And so tickled I have the hi speed wireless now. Lesson learned though, when I shut my laptop my connection does not shut off... So I came back to open it and saw I was still signed on. Oppps. But I still love it!!!! Pages pop open!

We had cable connected for the FIRST time ever with hubs! Down side, we have to call them back out. Only room getting cable is my son's room, all the other rooms the cables do nothing. So he is happy... Told him not to be shocked to find me in there, even with the rabbit ears I can barely get a channel in. Can't wait to have the history channel (hope we get that one) and discovery!

So being treated to a day of relaxation and no expectations except to rest and recover, very very nice. I don't even feel like I wasted my day sleeping, it was a need and I was able to do it... Now long as my body does not take it as a que to stay awake for a week!

 

[becvan]

I am not doing well. I'm losing weight from the "running to the bathroom" episodes I've had for the last week and it's getting worse.. I'm getting horrible images of being killed, beat up, tortured by the lovely father of my child that I have to testify against on wednesday.. I don't know how to handle being in the same building with him walking around loose.. I don't feel very safe right now and I'm getting exceptionally hyper viglante again. I want these damn images to piss off. I still haven't asked anyone to come with me yet (it is suggested so that if something happens I have a witness as a police officer can't escort me...) I feel weird about it.. like it's wrong to ask someone or that .. I have no idea.. ashamed maybe? that I feel so afraid.. Like I'm bothering others.. I don't know what to do.. I can't wait for thursday and this will all be over with.. I keep telling myself that.. it will be over soon.. I would give anything to have someone to curl up with and tell me that it is going to be alright.. just to be held for a little while.. *looks at dog* guess that will have to do...

Hope everyone is doing okay.. I may not be replying much right now as I'm just struggling to focus on putting one foot in front of the other right now..

Bec

 

[cookie]

praying for you, and your court date, bec. hope you find just the right person to go with you. somebody will be glad to go, i'm sure.

 

[jade]

Bec, Praying for you and keeping you in my thoughts. I know in my own personal experience if I didn't have the support that I had the day hub went to court I never would have made it through. Find some one you feel safe with. Or if you have to take an army. Just remember you don't have to be ashamed to ask for help. Big, big hugs to ya hun.You can do this.

 

[Deleted member 93]

You know Bec, look at it like this. There will be a paper trail for who ever gets stuck with that ass later down the line. You will be safe, keep telling yourself that. I know the fear and worse the intrusive images and thoughts and feeling downright paranoid of him coming to finish the job. I had that fear for 13 years and am just learning to let it go. Do not be ashamed of asking for someone to go, you need to feel safe as much as possible. And your fears are justified. Not so much as a witness. People will be around. You need someone for your overall mental well being.

You can do this, don't forget that and believe me, a dog is the best to curl up with and cuddle at times like this. Which makes me wonder... Why do women call men who are asses dogs? My dog is the sweetest most loving creature around, I would never put her down and compare her to my ex ;)

You can make this and you will be OK. I know we are in cyber land and different countries but you have friends all over the world who really care about you and love you and know you will be just fine, you can do this!

Now suck it up long enough to call someone trusted to escort you. My suggestion a big guy if you got one avalible. Wusses like that only like to hurt women, not tangle with anyone their own size. Best of luck on this rough patch.

 

[Deleted member 93]

My day, right now I feel I just got hit with a wall. Emotionally drained. Slept off and on yesterday. Told hubs I got my eight hours, he said two hours at a time doesn't count... Took a relaxing bath with all the relaxation goodies in it and I guess it is working, I feel like I am about to wipe out. And no kids home, empty house, all quite.

Saw hubs get online lastnight but he is being shy...

 

[goingonhope]

Time to myself this morning. Home with husb. and son today. Enjoyed some time spent sitting with son playing video games and time spent later with daughter reading Thumbelina. Napped well this afternoon. Aunt came over and had pizza for supper with us tonight. Daughter has been most loving and caring about me and my surgery tommorrow morning. I went out tonight. Aunt and I enjoyed watching movie this evening, together. Really scared about tommorrow bc I was powerless to follow doctor's instruction and not smoke for 2 wks. prior to surgery. Last night was such a good nt., today somewhat of a depressive bummer, as I'm not too happy with not knowing how to take better care of myself. Aunt says tonight before leaving house, she'll ask priests that she works with to pray for me tommorrow. I said, well how do you propose to get them to really do so, and not just say they will. She re-assured me that oh' they will. Just in case please, someone here, Please pray for me. I'm mostly afraid of not coming too from it. ...and I want so much to do so bc I have so much to live for. My husb. and kids, I love them so, and they need me.

 

[wildfirewildone]

Bec.....My advice to you at the moment would be to stop right NOW....Take some deep breaths....Then get out a piece of paper and write down just what you would tell one of your clients to do if he/she was in the exact same position that you are in the moment....then do these things for yourself...taking plenty of breaks to do some deep breathing...Sound good??? wildfirewildone....KEEPING THE PEACE