How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

[jods]

I miss my hubby.
I know he's safe & getting the rest he needs. I know this will be a good thing for him. He is getting the opportunity to take his society mask off & can really let it all come out. I'm proud of him for going in to seek help.

I cried last night after he rang to say goodnight & I'm still a bit teary today but I think thats a good thing. Means I still love him!

 

[goingonhope]

Stayed awake all night long. Got my children off to school. Napped today for 1 1/2 hr. Adjusted the entire day to consider a very sleepy mommy. Friend rang, and rang and rang to wake me, as I had asked, that I might arrive to pick up children from school. Changed the plan after waking and quickly enrolled kids, for the day-til 5pm in after school prog.

No outbursts of tension and frustr. lately from husb. which is making life oh' so very hopeful. Kids have been saying a great deal in the last couple days, all sorts of SWEET, SWEET things. (not being sarcastic) for Real.

One change I've really noticed a great deal in the last month, is that I'm more loving, dealing a lot less with bouts of overwhelming stress, frustr. and anger. Husb.'s more supportive, I'm easier to get along with. As a family we're overall more hopeful and loving. These are some of the things, keeping me willing, despite how painful' this crap' can all get.

Husb. about to watch "Flags of Our Fathers," ...about Iwogima during World War II, and I may soon join him. We are both 2days away from a cigg....always trying to succeed once again keeping cigg's down ..did it once for 2 1/2 yrs.

 

[GR-ass]

tired

just so tired all the time. muscles keep twitching, think it's the heat.

keep getting the shakes and feel like i'm going to throw up. know it isn't the heat.

head is killing me and my body is aching, feels like every breath is tearing me apart. Just want to scream. am so sick of feeling like nothing i do is right. feck i cleaned the house top to bottom friday by monda with only bro dearest home it was a pigsty
i felt like shit and then get revved by rents cos i never do anything

just don't even have the energy to be angry. feel kind of cut off emotionally atm. don't want to feel

 

[Deleted member 93]

still a shaky sick mess. Hubs keeps saying he will get me in to the doc soon. I really need to be back in therapy. I may "know" what I am supposed to do, it is just so frigging hard to implement it when I turn into a scared and scatter brained mess. I need the doc to prod me along and the "homework" doc would give me always had me actively working on areas I did not do well in. Getting that "I want to runaway" itch but hell I know I can't so I guess that is good! I always make a mess when I do that shit. As I shake so bad and cannot think oh yeah... I really need to get back at the doc and go dive in all myself help books again for some days. If I can think straight enough to get back on track. Pissed at myself that I have not been able to get my dose lowered like I want and keep it down from it being upped over this weekend. Not as high as I had it but not back down to normal. I would be so sick I could not care for the little one at all if at the normal levels...

 

[goingonhope]

With all the courage you've shown veiled, and the progress you're making I hope you succeed in not being to hard on yourself regarding your medicine dose. You know what your goals are, you're persistent and you'll reach them again.

 

[YoungAndAngry]

Just curious veiled, If your medication is helping you... Why exactly do you want the doses cut???

 

[goingonhope]

Exhausting.....absol. exhausting!

Trudged through this horrible weather. Shoveled far too much heavy, wet slushy snow. More to shovel. It's all suppose to freeze tonight. Neighb. and our yards flooded. Husb. at SIL helping bail out a finished basement which in presently flooding as fast as they bail it out. Insecure much of the day. Did a no show at kids school as lunch mother and now teacher's feeling angry at me. No time to clean vomit off diningroom floor. Grease tray fell and spalshed kitchen cabinets and floor. Coffee and creamed spilled on livingroom flr. in need of a wet vac. Kids are irritable, I'm irritable, frustr. and spent. Quickly venting to avoid escalating into any anger.

........feel like screaming.......... ahhhhhhhhh...... grrrrrrrrrrrrr.

 

[GR-ass]

i'm feeling okay with myself today.

Well, apart from not having slept :sigh:

I have a clean bedroom :D I may have had to buy draws to put my clothes in but it's clean XD

Oh I also managed to go into the shopping center today (to get the draws) only a small shopping center, but I did it. I ate out and didn't panic (well, not too much) it id help that even though I was seated in the middle of the room, there were mirrors around so I could see behind me.

After that (I know, still not finnished my day) I cooked dinner. :faint:

No wonder I feel so exhausted. All on three hours broken sleep :laugh:

 

[kers]

Not shoveling the ice/snow yesterday was a bad idea. Now it's frozen solid and it's going to take me ages to dig out.

On the brighter side, I have spent the snow days catching up on my TiVo and writing in my journal and being creative, and I feel really good about that.

 

[Nam]

I just want to crawl in bed and hide/sleep. I'm just having one of those days that I wish I could have the least amount of stimulation as possible. I want quiet, reflection time for just myself. I think I need a mommy break.

 

[reallydown]

nto havnig a good day...by teh way...is it normal for me to still not be over my recent expereince (about a week ago) of almost becomeing roadkill???

dang...evrything's just spinning...

 

[goingonhope]

Need sleep tonight. Husb. assured me kids had school today, so after a great deal of effort, we arrived at school only to find out-NO School. Now this is crazy. Today was no problem around here. The roads were well taken care of here. And, Yesterday there was school and the wind, snow, rain, slush, floods, storm, were wicked........OMG, and there was school yesterday. What is wrong with people?