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How's Your Day Been? Each Day is Different, So Make Your Mark Daily

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My day has been challenging. I went to meet someone who gave me the wrong name of the place and couldn't find her there. Obviously as she was on the beach over! We are not a fit as friends and that is abit disappointing. But I gave it a go.

I realised that I am still running around like a desparate and needy child trying to be part of everyone's social network. So that is hard. I haven't fixed that up and I have to sit with it. This is hard for me. I really wish I could stop trying so hard.
 
Too early today to know. But, yesterday, I accomplished cleaning and organizing my storage room(mostly filled with my crafting supplies, tools, and paint for the house). It had become a dumping ground and you could hardly walk in. I overcame my anxiety over such things and managed to get it almost done. Just a couple organizing things I'd like to do, like get rid of some of the paint that we no longer have use for and set up a place to keep my genealogy records. I did it all on my own. I wish every day was like that.
 
(((( gizmo )))), sorry to hear that.

Today really sucked big time. I have a horrible day. All I wanted to do was sleep, but I couldn't get comfortable. I have a hard time with the fact that I've been sleeping way to much since last Friday. I didn't even wake up until 9am that day. Yesterday, when I got home from church, I laid down and didn't get up until this morning. Had sucky dreams as well. sigh.
 
My neighbor lady and her husband have been gone for over a month now. It's hard not to know this, with all the snow we have had and it just piled up. I must admit I haven't missed seeing her. I have heard conflicting stories, like she is in one State and he is in another, so who knows what is going on with them. I even called their daughter this morning, to see if everything was okay, and all I heard, was everything was "fine".

The point is that during this time, I have been trying to get to the core of why she has upset me so much over these years, especially when they had the power company move the power pole into my yard, among other things. I was so angry at that time, and felt like I didn't have a choice, but now, as of today, I realize I did.

They crossed my boundaries, but I didn't say no to the power company. I didn't make the neighbors come over to me, and tell me what they were up to. I did have a choice, and I was too frightened, too scared of them, to stand up to them. I'm glad for this time away from seeing them, and hopefully will get stronger to be aware of my boundaries with them in the future. I better!!
 
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