nov_silence
Gold Member
A part of me is tired of thinking about stuff. It seems challengint enough to get through the day, an hour and a half bus ride home and then think about dinner or eating dinner... and then I collapse into sleep. I am working hard on my cognitions though. Trying not to take anything personally and doing my best... realizing that my best is different at different times. I am doing better than just maintaining... I looked at that list that you posted, Anthony and I felt daunted by the list. I scrolled through it several times realizing that I have felt and continue to feel so many of those things.. but have a hard time finding words to them. I realize that is easier to just go through my day if there are not triggers... to try and evoke thoughts, memories, feelings. I admit to feeling like, "why should I bother posting?" Esp since I don't have anything extraordinary to post. Maybe I am finding some level of refuge in being numb.